wanderers...what are you seeking

haiz
anime and manga ease ur world huh
these days ... my whole world revolves around the world of manga and anime ...and sometimes readings for my final...

once in a while, some uneasy thought may pop out but be crushed out immediately haha
these days ...how to convey my exact feelings...
it's not that no one cares about me
it's not that i feel lonely
it's not that everything just messed up all at once
it's nothing closed to what you may define as "sadness"
...
still
this empty shell of mine
what's it longing for?
what's it seeking in this flatten world?
what's it still hoping for?

it's just like before
once in awhile i would run away, hide myself somewhere and close my world

i live with fantasy and mirage
comforting myself with excitement and satisfaction in this unreal dimension

...
and here it goes
my sickening thoughts, sometimes sarcastic, cynical and disgusting

selfish and empty
still a lost soul wandering around this floating world
...
yes i may attempt to make it sound dramatic all of a sudden rite
but it's just that
i hate myself... once in a while
this stupid superficial self who doesnt know how to treasure and appreciate anything it has

what are you desiring? why i have to search nonstop for some new series to absorb myself in?

just wake up already and stop making your life so bland and superficial
damn it what is frustrating me at the 1st place?