Monday, 17 March 2008

non sense


let the fleeting melody carried my heart away
in the ephemeral dream world
that might be shattered any moments
just by any tiniest vibrant

run and hide
is an easy task anyone can opt to
but one cannot keeps on running and hiding
whenever the harsh reality greets them

wake up
little silly me
dreams are not shelter for your soul

wake up
the pain already etched deeply
your heart is still trembling from the memories
but dreams lead you nowhere
and the pain wont just vanish
...
remains at the bottom of your soul

open your eyes
brilliant sunshine wont hurt you dear

open your heart
the vast blue sky gently embraces you
and the fresh wind would ease your wound
ends your endless silly circle

dear little silly
just wake up
it's already this late.

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@multimedia NUS central library
spacing out in the middle of NM readings =.=
sucks

Monday, 3 March 2008

... bad dreams



恋ごころ [Koigokoro]

by Akane Suzayaki

from Tantei Gakuen Q

遠くまで続いてる 雲の流れをながめては
君の前で泣けなくて 口笛を吹いてる


「いつまでもそばにいて」と ひとことが言えなくて

あふれてく恋ごころよ せつない想いは
気づかれぬように 宙に消えようとして
そしてまた ホッとするような せいいっぱいの笑顔で
君を見送るよ
さよなら アリガトウ

それぞれのこれからは どんなふうになっていくのかな?
そんなことを考えて 夕暮れを待ってる

いつかまたきっと会えると 信じてみたいけれど

ふるえてる恋ごころよ 悲しき別れは
始まりの日から とうに近づいていた
君とここにいれることが わかりあうことが
うれしくて こわかったよ

誰にも話せない こんな秘密を
心の奥に隠したまま 育てていきたくて

恋ごころよ かなわぬ想いよ
生まれて初めて こうもひとを好きになり
君がまだずっといるような まぼろしを今も
胸に感じているよ

恋ごころよ 朱(あか)くなる空よ
やがて雲は切れ 夕闇につつまれ
明日はまたやってくるけど
君がいない町は 少し広すぎるよ
「もう一度あいたい」

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Gazing at the passing of the clouds
That continues on far into the distance
I whistle
Not able to cry in front of you

I can't say the words
"Stay with me forever"

Oh, my overflowing love
I try to make my sad feelings
Disappear into the sky
So that they'll go unnoticed
And I
See you off
With my best smile
That seems to make you feel relieved
Goodbye, and thank you

I wonder
What our respective futures will be like?
I think about those sorts of things
As I'm waiting for the twilight

I want to believe
That we'll meet again one day, but ...

Oh, my trembling love
A sad goodbye was
Already close at hand
From the day that we met
Me being able to be here with you
And us understanding each other
Has made me happy
And scared me

I can't tell
This kind of a secret to anyone
It's shut away in my heart
I want to foster it

Oh, my love, oh, unbearable feelings
This is my first time
Loving a person this much, since I was born
Even now
I feel the illusion in my heart
That you will always be here

Oh, my love
Oh, red sky
At last the clouds part
And are enveloped by the twilight
Tomorrow
Will come again, but
A city without you
Is one that's a little vast for me
"I want to see you again"

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shit! this song fits me damn well =.=
wth

have i always been haunted by the past...

more than 3 yrs...

damn
i had those ...should i say dreams or nightmares? @_@
maybe just bad dreams

and all of those feelings I've been always trying desperately to suppress deep down inside were all welling up uncontrollably and freely explode ...

since it's only in my dream... i guess it's ok

it's just that i never imagine they're still lingering around... and come back to etch the pain deeper and deeper ...

why?
do i deserve to bear this wound this long?

i've tried my best..not to leave any trace of contact

i even tried to make myself despise of u

make me vanish from your life

i've tried hard to completely get you out of my mind...
darn those memories that i once tried to capture wholly and treasure so dearly

whenever i thought that i'm so over you, they would just make their return and stab my heart over and over again

until when will i be free...

i already tried so hard
and i'm trying still...

so please...