saaaaaaaaa

this is a totally nonsensical entry haha
all about my love for manga LOL
just re-read some chapters from Cat street
literally, if there's no one around ...would definitely jumping up and down, screaming out of excitedness coz it's just so darn cute LOL (but since my roomates r around...only *jumping up n down* in my chair LOL)

my craziness over Kouichi Mine
my goodness LOL

nowadays i read too many manga that my sense of "beautiful" arts ...somehow loosens a bit (as in what i used to perceive as "ugly" now changes to "acceptable" or "pretty" =.=)

my tastes in manga also more or less changes

used to love those dramatic and supernatural stuff a lot...nowadays just daily lives n relationship would do
although i still hate those w too much dramas...
but it shouldnt be too perfect, too dreamy coz it would make the whole story fake
plus point is its optimistic spirits... dun wanna get myself depressed lol

i think probly those who r crazy over manga...like me... also love to see n notice every small n trivial details that convey a lot of emotion n caring...coz if u happen to read in a skimming fashion, u wouldnt notice them... n failed to see how cute n sweet it is
haha... ok it's too much rambling alr

but that's how i look at things... love to observe n zoom in n re-interpret haha
sometimes it's good ...since u can notice how sweet they n cute those small details r... but sometimes, it's too much n u reach the point of pointing out all the defects ...

haha i'm contradicting myself again? no, just trying to look at things on various aspects LOl

anw too much rambling alr

bottom line: Kouichiiiiiiiiiiiii XXXD
LOL
@ pic: see, that how cute my Kouichi is XXXD
OMGGGGGGGGGGGGG

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idiotically useless dreamer...

it's my 1st time crying so hard for such a long time and feeling so angry about my useess self
...
it's really painful knowing that i'm not able to go to Hiroshima.... although I alr know there's high possibility that i cant afford it...
it just strikes me hard as if i realized that the whole time.... I still havent done anything significant enough to make my dream come true..
i'm just going on whining and dreaming...
and asking for my mom's help
i cant even save money, not to mention to earn it myself!
...
in the end i'm still so useless and childish as always and the only thing i resort to ...again is crying like a helpless baby not knowing how to get what she wants!

have to mention that i always want everything to be my way! such selfish nature...
anw evenbthough i'm saying that i know i havent dne anything so far... i still havent figured out what i can do and what i have to do dont i?
will it just be another useless talk and useless time spending...
look at my fren, they work hard to earn what they want!
and what i'm doing here? dreaming and being reminiscent?
it's just frustrating and idiotically stupid

i dont want to cry out of helplessness and anger and frustration like this again... anymore
do sth!

君を乗せて。。。

too peaceful and beautiful it is...
that it's never gonna be true
pure and gentle
somehow it hurts ... because it's just an unreal fantasy




it's how i love to listen to non-lyrics music
you can just interprete it in accord with your mood...
guess i'm not in good mood now lol
... still tremendously love this piece

ピーロウス _ The Pillows

someone posted the song somewhere and i came to know of The Pillows
...not bad i think :D

not have the time and patience to read all of someone's blog but get the general idea about the uneasiness when thinking about dreams and future --- just like me --- and probly everyone else who has always wishes to escape at my age

...haha i definitely dont like him in terms of those kinds of romantic relationship lol
but just feel curious and being drawn closed to him haha
just like caring for all of my bro... hehe
i bet i'll be a sweet sis if i ever have bro ...:P

ok enough for rambling
and here is the song i mention about



sigh
...
君の夢が叶うは誰かおかげじゃないぜ！！！

そうだね！