once in a while it's just so frustrating seeing everything blur n blur =.=
i'm so stupid =.=
sigh...
always proud that i have a passion and an interest
...proud that i know whatis it that i wanna do
but now, thinking back .... i always kind screwed up n made all wrong choices =.=
probably... well wrong or not i'm still not sure but at least, they made me so clueless and regreted now =.=
like why dun i choose to get in Japanese way back at the time i first entered uni in Vn?
like wth i dropped all my chances to apply for Japanese uni back when i was at high schl? i'm sure there're quite loads of chances that time =.=
damned!
like why didnt i choose Japanese studies for my major when 1st entered NUS?
like why didnt i take Japanese in my 1st sem?
like why didnt i try harder to get my CAP good at the very 1st sem...then i wouldnt have to suffer now =.=
loads n loads of things T_T
there's no use regretting it now u must say
but it cant be helped =.=
how can i stop bittering myself over my stupid choices?
loads of things ...
like how i was too shy n couldnt make frens with such nature =.=
inconfident ...of course =.=
the more i think about it the more i hate useless self =.=
sigh.....
youth will pass by by no time u know =.=
then .... what i want to do, what i desire...until when? how to achieve? i really have no clue
and i cant stop dreaming abt it =.=
i just hate my total lack of confidence self T_T
nobody would ever bother to notice those lack of confidence =.=
and it's really hard to find pple that somehow could read ur mind ...rite?
almost impossible =.=
...n i will be 1 yr older very soon
every year it always makes me wonder what will change? will there be anything special?
i do change every year, quite a lot i think
but still, i guess i just never can be satisfied haha... sighhhhhh
...and i told my best fren i'll make Japan my lover LOL
