会いたくて

oh... now that i looked back, i'd alr composed the 1st entry of 2009 out of my frustration with Twilight w/o knowing that it's the 1st of 2009...

it doesnt really matter anw

and again what i wanted to put down is another story

yes, i was taken aback
... pretty much caught off guard as i never expected such

it's just that someone who is important to me just dropped me a msg informing his departure for Australia tmr

well... so more than 4 yrs has passed since i became his so-called lil sis
4 yrs of him adressing me by another nickname other than the one everyone uses... hope he wont use it w the others though lol

haha before i knew, i've alr grown to adore and etch in amap all the memories, all the very little thing that my first ever brother (or at least used-to-be) gave me

just that after such long time w/o conversing, he still rmb to drop me a msg, which is just so ...out of the blue
and as ever, touching me and surprising me

maybe i'm not that invisibe in his memory ....hopefully
at least i should be accompanied w sth like used-to-be lil sis haha

or maybe it's just his nature that cant get him to just ignore n forget stupid girls like me

anw, safe trip and all the best to you :D
the one person who i probably carry the most memories about

本当に会いたくて。。。


涙そうそう

古いアルバムめくり　ありがとうってつぶやいた
いつもいつも胸の中　励ましてくれる人よ
晴れ渡る日も　雨の日も　浮かぶあの笑顔
想い出遠くあせても
おもかげ探して　よみがえる日は　涙そうそう
一番星に祈る　それが私のくせになり
夕暮れに見上げる空　心いっぱいあなた探す
悲しみにも　喜びにも　想うあの笑顔
あなたの場所から私が
見えたら　きっといつか　会えると信じ　生きてゆく
晴れ渡る日も　雨の日も　浮かぶあの笑顔
想い出遠くあせても
さみしくて　恋しくて　君への想い　涙そうそう
会いたくて　会いたくて　君への想い　涙そうそう

I whisper “thank you”, as I leaf through this old photograph album,
to one who always cheered me on, within my heart
And should the memories of that smile I think of, *1
come rain or shine, fade away into the distance
They return in the days I search for a glimpse of your face, a stream of tears
Almost a habit now, I wish upon the very first star *2
Looking within the evening skies for you with all my heart
The memories of that smile I think of, in sorrow or joy
And if you can see me, from where you are
I’ll live on, believing that someday we’ll meet again
And should the memories of that smile I think of,
come rain or shine, fade away into the distance
In loneliness and yearning - my feelings for you, a stream of tears
If only we could meet, if only we could meet - my feelings for you, a stream of tears

Nada Sou Sou - RImi Natsukawa