i think there're many pple out there always longing towards their dream, anticipating, agonizing coz seeing no future to it...
yet somehow everytime thinking about my only dream now, i feel lonely as if it's just me, one and only with this dream that i dont know how to make it come true... everyone either has nothing like that to worry about or somehow on their way reaching their dreams als
possibilities are just possibilities and they're not even at my advantages since i'm living in another country...
seeing pple of my age drawing closer to what they want, i feel envious...
not that i dont want to see them happy ... it's just that it makes me feel so helpless coz i'm so far behind... i want to catch up n it's not easy to...
the gap is too big, in terms of everything i have
i wonder sometimes pple take me and my dream as a joke or sth not so important?
but just with that, i alr feel so helpless and suffocated as i cant find out a way for sure to achieve it
and yet, there're pple thinking that it's just some trivial stuff
well, for me it's like the question of myself.. my ability. what can i do when i find what i really want?
n yet i just suck as i am
to be more motivated! more passionate! more determined!
i tried to tell myself but i'm still working half-hearted
i jst want to drown my stupid self right here T_T
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