recently

long time no blogging haha
i'm coming back to VN soon for ultimate vacation XD
well jst random rambling as usual coz of the thought of capturing the moment lingering around me
The me recently...well, nothing special
i'm gaining weight...[AGAIN!]
and i'm not improving in koto =.=' [if u dont wanna say i suck badly ><]
still full-fledged-ly in love w Oh-chan LOL
somehow feel that i'm like a crybaby these days =.='
why?
it's really a mystery even for me -.-'
coz i'm living happpily w Arashi and Ohno on my minds 24/7 everyday... but somehow when it comes to movie or sth a tiny bit touching, i'll cry like a baby w/o restraining?! O_O
that sucks... well it's fine when i'm like that and alone...but ytd i was watching the damn movie in the cinema and i would say it's not sth very touching or very emotional and i still find myself crying like hell next to my fren @_@
damn it! that's embarassing ...deshou T_T [not to mention the fact that i'm e oldest amongst all of them T_T]!!!!
wth has happened to me @_@
T_T
kamisama, setsumei shite kureru no T_T

recently i'm reading some novel, one by Yoshimoto and the other my Murakami, yes Murakami Haruki :D
it's not really a novel, more corecctly it's like his own perception of writing and running
i found the title interesting the moment i saw it "what i talk about when i talk about running" ^^
i love these kinds of curiosity-raising things :D

well ppl may find it boring, what;s there to talk about running anw? but it somehow becomes really interesting to me ^^
like how all the frustration about the self, about youth, confidence, individuality, perspectives comes mixing in a smooth and not so faked way
i love that style of Murakami, slow and seemingly uneventful but thought-provoking ^_^
well it's worth comtemplating ont hings like that once in a while
but looking back to reality, while everyone's concerned is money and life, mine seems to be so trivial and nonsensical T_T
it appears as i'm jst some snobbish kid, only love to freely enjoy life w/o thinking or contemplating on future =.='
well, fyi i do! jst that everytime i do, it makes me tremendously depressed and distanced and blurred
in all to be me again, i make myself to not be aware of such the least possible haha
i've always been that kind of selfish person

well i can just blame all on the world adn the time i live, in which the self is highly concerned and treasured =.='
haha
whatever
it seems that things are out of the way again
ok i whould stop now in order not to wandering again :D
see u soon if there's ever any reader of my blog LOL
well like i care haha

oh, btw, jst to share this song
it's really damn cute to me...somehow :D

10 Love Situation - Arashi -



@pix: me [right] n my fren w new hair =.='
damn ex and not very satisfied coz it's e same style i had T_T