exam is near...and -_-'

As days are drifting away and exam is drawing nearer by hours, i'm still in a very relaxed mood!!! =.='
noooooooooooo i'll definitely regret it later... =.='

and now my mind is wandering with the trip to Japan =.='
as you see, it'll be in the beginning of december :D
it'd probably be the change of season frm autumn to winter...or so i hope
still wish to be able to catch the deep red momiji's color ><
or else, some snow flakes would at least make me happier than just coldness you see ><
well i wish to embrace the beauty of the four seasons i've never experienced in my life ... how i wish to be able to live there for some years ...sigh

well i'm not the type who can speak my thoughts or emotion very clearly and in a logic manner...
and action speaks more than words...or so i thought
so if pple are not sensitive or observational enough to feel the change or the love in my tone of speech or action... there it goes, i'm cold and indifferent haha
...well i couldnt careless, it's just a matter of characteristic and way of life

still mayb it's easier if i live w pple who appreciate tiny things in life ... tiny things that i made an effort to do
coz i'm one of those who hate troublesome things =.=
and it's not like i'm not lazy haha

and i love whining so much i cant understand myself haha
mayb it's a way to let out my depression/ stress or worry =.='
still i love all e pple i can whine to <3
coz i wont just whine to any random person =.=

sigh
and after ranting this much, my thoughts again return to Ohchan =.='
is it really all i can think about T_T
what's abt work and other matter?!!! i couldnt care less !!! noooooooooooo
...the more i read abt him, the more i watch him, the more hopeless fan girl i become =.='
haha
*and i realized that all Ohno's fan girls are as hopelessly falling in love w him as me @.@
which is both understandable and frustrating!

anw i wish to be able to go to their concert soon T_T (they just performed at TOkyo disneyland last night! T_T)
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
and japan...
this obssession of mine ...where will it go to?
i think i probly reach the point where i come to accept everything bad abt Japan alr =.=' like how i feel like arguing w anybody badmouthing/ stereotyping abt japan w/o really understanding it!

urgggghhhhhhhh
these scribbles went too far alr!
i need to stop =.='
back to exam and endless reaading pls.... like i can T_T
and i want to make more Oh-chan's fan vid T_T
!!!!
i'm seriously a gone case T_T
drift wood ....... blah

@pix: blur Ohno is loved <3
eventhough it's nt my fav song in this single, somehow i want to listen to this song this morning ^^

side note: Oh-chan doesnt really eat pickled shallot XD ~ (well i cant eat it and i love e fact that he doesnt seem to really like it haha ~ ) -->?!!!! @_@'