came back from Japan
and this feeling of unease and loss always seem to linger around me ><
bittersweet? nostalgic?
in 2 weeks in Japan, i cried like thrice ...i think
just because of the overwhelming of that pure fantasy world of Ghibli, and the sadness of having to say goodbye
when watching Mei and koubus-neko, somehow i just cant help feeling lost in the innocent and fantastical immagination of a faraway childhood that i cant return
and that i can no more touch that world
that i need to grow up
it's sadddening beyond words...
and i cant stop crying thinking of having to leave Hiroshima, having to leave Japan after few days
even though always know that there's always a time you have to say good-bye
and things at that time just wont return no matter how you wish for it
things just have to come and be gone
but it's still better, being able to taste the sweetness of encounter ...rite? even though the greater the encounter is the vaster the emptiness spread in time of saying good-bye
and Japan
it's dazzling as always
it never fails to amaze and touch my soul
maybe i have the confidence to say that i can withstand the harshness i may overcome having to work and live there
would prefer to live in small town rather than Tokyo thou ^^
even though it reduces my chance of running across Ohchan haha
...how far have i fall for Japan i think i cant just estimate haha
or maybe theis feeling is just the effect of having a wonderful dream and suddenly being thrown back to reality
maybe i take in too much and expect too much so, more prone to disappointment
ahhhhhhh~ wanna go somewhere really cold to spend Christmas away T_T
since i'm nt able to spend it in Japan T_T
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
need some arashi to refresh!
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