thoughts when watching a tv show

feeling frustrated
when i'm here wandering around trying to push away reality...
what have i done for my dreams?
i'm still lost and unsure how exactly is the way to reach my dreams
stupid and inconfident
until when...
more than anything this helplessness and indecisiveness in me
while seeing others working hard for their dreams, i'm here at nowhere in my life
work harder!

random

sometimes i think i have a strange attachment to seasons and the inherently fleeting character of time....
even though i never really experienced the seasons i hold perception of until this point of time
maybe that's why it's so appealing and attractive to me
sigh...

i admit that i have lots of strange fetish and interest... in one way or another
sometimes it a bit bothers me how sick and strange they are though =.= lol

well it's summer vacation now and i have a bit of time on my hand but ...
the matter is not always what i decided no matter how i look at it, no matter how optimistic i may be
still there're things you know that it's just for encouraging and lifting your mood
...
there're things i want to say more but nvm
somehow it jsut sounds very ridiculous to me at the moment
i dont even know why i composed this entry =.='
for seasons? i didnt even talk about it that much
as usual, i'm wandering from topics to topics and not making myself clear enough in the end

sigh
wandering minds LOL

in the end, i jsut think that maybe i'll be exceptionally good in conversation w people born under sagittarius
wonder why?
haha
there're just lots of strange patterns alike and maybe i read too much of those horoscopes and let them sink onto my mind subconciously

i love this song =]
maybe coz of seasons..and Ohno haha

興味は... ＞D＜

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最初は。。。大野ちゃんがすきになってXXXD
大好きって、こんな感じは錦戸亮ちゃんしかないの
本気だよ！
だからこれから大ちゃんと亮ちゃんはトップです　LOL
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初めてグループも好きにちゃったよ
本当に！

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ははは
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確かに、今亮ちゃんだけわけではないの
大ちゃんと
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