spitz... and the nite

Spitz is always my favourite band <3
love Masamune san's warm and treble voice...it's so in tune with the lyrics. or so i feel ~
and somehow whenever i listen to Spitz, the night feels a bit colder and windier =.='
or it's just my imagination
maybe it fits with the image of a self-struggling to comprehend the world and follow the dream
or it's just a world full of wonders whenever any image of life being framed and captured
the way the tender words flows is saddeningly beautiful
it strikes me deep at times when i need to seriously consider my life
ended up shedding tears without any particular reason
maybe it's the frustration of myself being lazy and useless, indulged in ppls' sweetness
and satisfied w my stupidity and limitation!

なにか終わりまだ始まり。。。そっか。。。
何も始められないよ、このままだったら
もっと自分たいして厳しくならなっきゃダメなのよ！
人にもっと優しく親切になって欲しい！
何を始めたら、ちゃんとやるしかないよ！
興味を持っていれば、絶対手に入れるまで、外れない！頑張ろうって本気でやるぞ！

somehow ended up teaching myself the determination of Ohchan haha ...maa~ whatever, even if the motivation starts like that

大ちゃんの誕生日だよ！～<3

It's Ohchan's birthday today XD
haha i cant imagine i can be any further ridiculous haha
this is too much even for fan girl...but since i cant meet him, i cant wish him any Happy birthday directly, let's me just share the joy by myself then ><

and since this is all i can do for my beloved idol <3

coz deep down in my heart, i know that thanks to Ohchan and arashi, i've beeen trying to live better... even thou it's just small thing bt everything starts small rite ^^

Ohchan, wish you all the best ~
and just stay adorable that way ~
ずっと見守ってあげるよ～

and here's my lousy attempt of making fan vid for Ohchan <3
[wish i could make sth more decent....i'll try nxt year :D]




credits all the vid to arashi lj community

exam is near...and -_-'

As days are drifting away and exam is drawing nearer by hours, i'm still in a very relaxed mood!!! =.='
noooooooooooo i'll definitely regret it later... =.='

and now my mind is wandering with the trip to Japan =.='
as you see, it'll be in the beginning of december :D
it'd probably be the change of season frm autumn to winter...or so i hope
still wish to be able to catch the deep red momiji's color ><
or else, some snow flakes would at least make me happier than just coldness you see ><
well i wish to embrace the beauty of the four seasons i've never experienced in my life ... how i wish to be able to live there for some years ...sigh

well i'm not the type who can speak my thoughts or emotion very clearly and in a logic manner...
and action speaks more than words...or so i thought
so if pple are not sensitive or observational enough to feel the change or the love in my tone of speech or action... there it goes, i'm cold and indifferent haha
...well i couldnt careless, it's just a matter of characteristic and way of life

still mayb it's easier if i live w pple who appreciate tiny things in life ... tiny things that i made an effort to do
coz i'm one of those who hate troublesome things =.=
and it's not like i'm not lazy haha

and i love whining so much i cant understand myself haha
mayb it's a way to let out my depression/ stress or worry =.='
still i love all e pple i can whine to <3
coz i wont just whine to any random person =.=

sigh
and after ranting this much, my thoughts again return to Ohchan =.='
is it really all i can think about T_T
what's abt work and other matter?!!! i couldnt care less !!! noooooooooooo
...the more i read abt him, the more i watch him, the more hopeless fan girl i become =.='
haha
*and i realized that all Ohno's fan girls are as hopelessly falling in love w him as me @.@
which is both understandable and frustrating!

anw i wish to be able to go to their concert soon T_T (they just performed at TOkyo disneyland last night! T_T)
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
and japan...
this obssession of mine ...where will it go to?
i think i probly reach the point where i come to accept everything bad abt Japan alr =.=' like how i feel like arguing w anybody badmouthing/ stereotyping abt japan w/o really understanding it!

urgggghhhhhhhh
these scribbles went too far alr!
i need to stop =.='
back to exam and endless reaading pls.... like i can T_T
and i want to make more Oh-chan's fan vid T_T
!!!!
i'm seriously a gone case T_T
drift wood ....... blah

@pix: blur Ohno is loved <3
eventhough it's nt my fav song in this single, somehow i want to listen to this song this morning ^^

side note: Oh-chan doesnt really eat pickled shallot XD ~ (well i cant eat it and i love e fact that he doesnt seem to really like it haha ~ ) -->?!!!! @_@'

and random fandom ... or whatever i feel lol

sometimes i'll be wondering what i'm doing and what i've been doing
where am i again in my life and in my dream
well just to remind me that my dream is still very far away from my reach and that i need to strive further...much more

sometimes it still struck me that things never seem the way it is...eventhough i seem to rmb this by heart but i still passed on lots of judgement ... please observe and be more understanding, less prejudice =.=

right now there're so many things passing by my brain that i alr forgot what i intended to note down in e 1st place .... my forever problem ><

talking abt fandom...
well whatever... but thanks tremendously to arashi's encouraging words in their song, i can gather the courage to be extremely optimistic XD... maa maybe they kinda fill up some empty spots in my heart and erase all the tiredness of the day

and Ohchan's voice would just ease out every problem
Ohchan has healing power ...everyone says so and i do think so <3 ~

and yes, at my age, Ohchan is already struggling and working hard w Arashi
at my age you know.... sigh
well the image i hold of Ohchan may be just another false statue that media built up but i want to believe that it's made up of 90% truth ~ well it is! haha
i have enough confident to say that i fall deep in love w my Ohchan haaha
gosh! =.=' and i somehow forgot the existence of men's attraction? do i hahaha

it's hopeless and painful to be a fangirl this way T_T

...been so long since my last endless nonsense ranting =.='
should i just go and brush up my fan vid for Ohchan's coming birthday ><

....Ohchan said he wants to be 30 soon since 29 feels like sth is missing =.=
haha he's passed the point of afraid of the mounting of age alr... mah...should i pass that point too?
deep down inside everyone knows my mental age...and it seems my Ohchan is not aging mentally at all XD ~ (another similar point?) hahah

see how crazy am i =.='
maa that's really enough and i'll stop now
last thing

i love this song partly coz of this sentence "目の前に見る君の瞳、真っ白いになる頭の中”
isnt it so cute ~




@pix: i cant resist screaming coz of it XD
kyaaaaaaaaaaaaa ~ <3

again and again?

you know i hate it when i feel like being lied to =.=
it's just like i'm nt significant enough to deserve the truth
the thing is sometimes i feel like being too sensitive abt these stuffs
like how i found myself all disappointed and cheated coz there's little thing here and there a bit different to what they show me =.=
and so the easy-disappointed me will just get all emo and stat to blame anything and anyone
that's just me and how i am
... and i'm extremely sensitive to pple closest to me =.=
that's a die-hard bad habit T_T
sigh......

so i'm scared of trusting anyone ...
and you know the result is the fan girl me who put all my love and trust and dream into my boys LOL

for them i can accept being lied to hahaha
of course it's my Arashi and my one and only Ohchan XD ~
maa sho ga nai yo, so re ha hahaha

there'll be some more days to Ohchan's birthday XD

and it's the song i'm kind of addicted to these days <3 ~
kawaii yo <3