aoi usagi

it's a mixed feeling of nostalgia and restlessness =.=' i guess
on realizing that the number in the available ledger in my bank acc is really low... and there're still many things i want to buy T_T
(shopping + window shopping + online shopping is good for your health but not good for your pocket T_T)
being a girl is tiring coz you need to dress up and stuff ? why? just for feeling good mayb LOL

anw... the point is i'm going to declare personal bankcruptcy soon and wth NUS hasnt sent us money yet T_T
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh

somehow i feel very restless today =.='
thinking of next week, projects, money, Japanese, job and future
and none of the music in my playlist completely suits with this mood ><
i wonder why T_T

maybe i need to go to KOTO practice anw
maybe i need to fangirl
or maybe i need to watch anime
or maybe i need to go shopping
or maybe i need to talk w my family
or maybe i just need my mom to call to check up on me
...
or maybe i'm just frustrated of being useless and broke T_T

admit it: without money, you cant enjoy life =.='

things i've consumed today

applessssss T_T
apricot yoghurt
dried prawn, my fav dish o.O (VNese call it tom kho^ =.= LOL)
oolong tea
jelly drink
hahaha

well it's still better than instant noodles i guess =.='

somehow feel like i really leave no whatsoever impression on pple
well i dont like to stand out in e 1st place =.= so it doesnt matter
but if there's really nothing of me to rmb even for pple closed to me, that's weird rite

well what can i do haha
maybe it's all a matter of expression
for the time being let's leave it that way haha

ok good at least feeling more optimistic o.O lol

this song was frm long long time ago....more than 10yrs? i think
i love it back then eventhough i couldnt really comprehend the words ^^
...dont like the drama thou ><



....i guess it's not only me who changed
pple are changing so fast that i can no longer recognize them
and sure my place in their hearts is no longer there to return rite?
i hate that fact eventhough i'm also one of those contributing factors
maybe there is one and only place i can sure be welcomed at any time ~ my mom and my family
that should be the ultimate rite...and maybe my arashi ~ lol