海の沿いにいたいなぁ。。。

there're days when things are just off...
and somehow everything just piles up your frustration
to some point where it seems to touch the surface of limits
...breaks free
temper? anger? frustration? a desire to destroy something
anything
anyone
yourself includes

burying in loud music, the temptation to sleep away all the weariness arises
but it just wont end
that easily
thought alr used to this quietness
.....
watched some movie adapted from Murakami Haruki's Tony Takitani in the span of 45mins in class
eventhough in just a short time but it managed to capture one's attention of the stillness of space, the quietness of pple's thoughts, the mounting unbearable tranquility that intertwined with loneliness

uneventful, slow, still, concentrated, suffocated

or at least that's how one can look at it

sounds' existence seems to come to a halt
voice turns whisper
thoughts vanished into air
quietness remains
empty and cold as ever
even the color carries the cold temparature

well, whatever
maybe it's the movie and the inefficience of the day pulls one down to the bottom of selfishness

wishing to be spoiled again by the ultimate shelter mom

夢のため食うため生きるため
愛する人の傍にいるため
眩しい西日が傾いてきて
切ない想いが胸を占める
愛された分まで強くなれ
言い聞かせながら旅は続く

大丈夫だよ！もうなれたんじゃん