have u ever cried watching suspense drama when sb sacrificing themselves for their partner? to protect others or to devote for their beliefs/ ideology?
i bet somehow the movie director know how to make us cry rite haha
well just a very random thought occured to me today while watching those kind of scences...
maybe i also long to experience that kind of feeling
maybe it's foolish to head on with all the ideology human constructed but maybe there's something else
something more meaningful than that
pple wont just throw their life away for sth foolish rite
somehow i wish to once experience that kind of feelings... leave behind anything and just charge forward to protect sth so dearest without any hestitation
... wonder i'm those kind of pple
i mean i'm chicken-hearted =.=...scared of pain, having no ideology and holding a saturated belief in the world and how it works...
so it'll be quite difficult for sb like me to hold firm belief in some ideology and sacrifice myself for it =.='
i may not have that kind of passion, devotion and bravery ...i thinkT_T
loser aint I =.=
hahaha
well it's not like i dont know that i'm being fed by the media w all those ideologies
i know very well that all of those dramas created for making pple having a positive way of looking at life, and unconciously follow all the ideologies that the media wants to impose on pple
still if it's for sth better, why not?
i mean if it's meant for promoting a more positive way of life, why dont let yourself critically absorbed it?
avoid what you dont like, criticize it, but take in what may help at the same time
what's wrong w that? even if it's all constructed by human will, if it may at any tiny bit help you to strive forward sth rather than living a useless life, then why not?
even if it makes you disgusted knowing how the media and the 'power' hand in hand use all sorts of dirty framing to maintain what they think is better for the nation, for the 'general good'
...in the end i guess the pple in power probably had some time in their youth thinking alike us, abt how corrupted the world is and came to conclusion that somehow it's inevitable and necessary or had been forced to use all the dirty methods for a 'general good' goal
...well is it really inevitable?
we cant live taking everything for granted but what's the point of living knowing how all of these work and still cant do anything abt it
i dont have the ambition to make ...a better world for human beings and stuff w such 'grand' and 'benevolent' purpose seriously
but it does make me frustrated from time to time choosing my own standing
in the end, can anything change at all =.='
hahaha
you can laugh at all these rambling childish thoughts
but rmb children do have a whole diff point of views which may question lots of things you've been taking for granted
well in the end, just dont judge pple coz they appear and act childish =.=
it takes all the curiosity, efforts and contemplation to make question and think childlike haha
... well i think today i just feel like bitching and being all conceited as if i know everything =.='
whatever
frustration from too much sleep and no work done maybe hahah
i'm still such a kid =.='
so just head on, go ahead baby XXXD haha
Oh-chan would've chosen to head on without thinking too haha <3
P.S.: oh forgot to say that i dont like men thinking that women shouldnt think too much and be too ambitious as women's place is family after all...
i dont deny that women should take care of the family and children but it doesnt mean that's their sole purpose and work in life =.=
and it doesnt mean that those domestic work can only be fulfilled by women
stop being so narrow-minded and selfish, men
haha i feel like i'm participating in some feminist movement LOL
well i'm not but pls just dont think that women = domestic housewives =.=
4 comments:
Hope you don't mind if I say these things. XDD
Wonder watching a movie can change one's mind indeed ? if so, how long that state remains until he/she changes back to his very old self ? Is it anything that can change one person from the first place ? or it is there, yet he/she has not realized ?
A bad guy suddenly got affected by one factor, and turn into a good one; Does he change ? or he has his intrinsic good deed hidden somewhere that now is dig up ? And perhaps same circumstance is applied for a "good" person too.
People are undeniably good at taking things for granted. What's the point when knowing that but you cannot do anything ? or you don't want to ? if you want to, who/which can stop you ? You are really not capable ? then let it be ? The wheel continues rolling... Another time in an easily foreseen future, one more person say the same old thing, yet do nothing. Things just go on and on ... Don't you realize it ? You are your own boss, aren't you ? As an unique and united entity. You have your ideal, your standard, your life, your thought, your creativity, your sweat, your blood, your tear ... What's else do you need ? [I'm a bit pissed off ! please don't mind] ...
There are countless parts of you buried every single corner on the path you're walking on. Yes ! Strive forward ! I'm sure you're not lonely in that war ... Fighting ! fighting ! [eyes burning !] XDDDDDD
well sorry making you pissed off reading my blog =.='
but i'm also pissed off myself typing it out
did i mention i used my blog to release stress?
did i say watching a movie can change anything?
i mean movie and the media makes me think such and such but of course they are just unreal =.='
and sometimes i know very well that i'm just being fed information at the media's will (as the media use these kinds of stuff to implant on pple ideology and manipulate information)
but the problem may not be the media but how you take in the information... just wholely as they show you or critically examine the information
and yeah you're right i'm my own boss but i cant decide a stand for my own. everything seems right for me! there's a need to be forcefully cruel at times so that some order to make this world run as it does today stays intact. Yet at the same time, it's too cruel to forget the humanity element. So i cant decide my stand!and apparently it troubles me from time to time!
what can i do? i always ask myself question like this but seriously eventhough i try to think i'm superhero, reality is i havent even secured my future, not to mention take care of my family or devote for the world's peace
... and today watching that movie, i just suddenly feel that having sth ideal to devote one's life for is so beautiful! (though it may just be some stupid ideology from the media)
and i was thinking maybe i'm longing to find something so ideal, so precious to me that i dont mind sacrificing myself for it...wholeheartedly... the thing i believe i havent found yet!
Yes, you did. [mention writing blog help you getting better.... But still could not help ... ]
You've been over-pressured by your job in future lately. Things supposed to be done have already been thought by you, yet triggered to start.
Wonder if your ego were not that great, you wouldn't struggle that much... if your ideal means so much to you, then what's else that trouble you ? Why don't just be honest to yourself ? If you're waiting for a chance, get ready, hone everything you have; When there's a spark, make it a fire.
Hope you find whatever you've been look for, just remember who you are and where you're from, I suggest.
well sry for getting angry haha
i guess it's just different
for me i need to constantly question myself abt my way n somehow try to answer it =.='
and maybe you're more capable of doing things you want, unlike me =.=
anw thanks for all the trouble you take to read all of these nonsense haha
and happy Lunar new year (if you do celebrate) ^^
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