going to bed ard 10 to 11
waking generally 4hrs ~5hrs after that
it's how i spend my days =.=
dunno it's healthier than sleeping late or not haha but well it works for now haha
koto practice starts again XXD
now is 春の日
well as usual i'm the slowest and always fails at playing the piece ><
... but i enjoy playing it and enjoy meeting the pple in the club
isnt that all that matters?
i mean guys often aim to master sth they do rather than enjoying it.... or maybe it's just my generalization haha
although it's ll be great if you can master sth you like
but if you dont have the talent for it ...what to do? giving up? >< noooo that's too wasted
i mean arts is a concept that moves and evolves over time rite? nowadays it depends on pple's take on what arts is also....so maybe...just hypothetically speaking but maybe one beautiful day, whatever you do becomes arts and recognized by pple? LOL
well i dont think of such amazing thing to enjoy doing "my arts" but why dont just do what we want? life is so short so dont limit yourself in the constraint of social norms... it's all human-made anw hahah
but at least we should have the motivation to strieve for sth better rite haha...
anw i forgot what i wanted to write about in this entry in the beginning =.='
a wandering and forgetful mind =.='
ok abt things i found intriguing or irritating lately...
like how sb can be so inconsiderate to ask a stranger is it becoz such and such that you're still not attached!!!
i mean it's really inappropriate to talk abt such private matters when you dont know each others =.=' in any context, esp to Asian!!!
the whole conversation is really "..." for me =.='
speechless haha
hmmm i dont like inconsiderate pple
i dont appreciate pple who go on bragging abt themselves also =.=' or just showing off that they're somehow superior.... =.='
even if they have the rights to (as in if they're really talented)...well-educated pple should know just only when they really need to show it
if one's "self" is too big, there's no way they'll try to reconcile w others
i mean they wont learn to accept that others are different eventhough others' values might as well be just as great as the ones one holds
and since there's no intention to accept the difference, they wont be willing to work/ cooperate w others which in the end reduces their chance to look at the world at another point of view
... and for me pple dont live their life alone
everyone lives their own life but they do need the factor "others" to exist =.='
so for me consideration is important
my point is i think i'll try my best to listen to others and place myself in their position to understand why they do such and such ... most of the time i still dont get why they did what they did LOL but at least i came to know there're other ways at looking at such thing haha
the problem with my way is sometimes after listening to pple, i cant chose my stand/ take on such problem
and it's very very troublesome when you need to write papers on controversial issues (e.g. war) =.='
coz i cant really chose my stand seeing that both are not wrong in one way or another ...
..... hmmm seems like i start jumping to other matters again T_T
ok whatever... the point is to try to listen to what others have to say -.-'
...i should stop now anw
too much rambling for a beginning of the week haha
btw i'm stuck with her music... nice back-ground music ~
but i like her style <3 ~ cute in a funky and mischievous way lol\
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