-so what? -so plenty [somehow i can draw connection to Ohchan orz]

i sleep too much T_T
i know that i sleep toooooooooo much T_T
my brain tells me dont bt i cant refrain physical self ORZ
i think i probly slept for 3/4 of sunday
wtf ^$#U)$@)
@_@ that's how i couldnt afford doing anything else T_T
even watching arashi's shows properly
like wth *_*
i hate doing things half-heartedly this way ^:)^
urghhhhhh
it'll be horrible frm now towards the end of March *__*
i can only see deadlines on my planner o.O
and nothing else =.=
no job
money
Japan
wtf

T_T
and in between all the naps on that lazy drowsy sunday i dreamt of riding a roller coaster
and it always scares the hell out of me when the roller coaster drops ...
though i would enjoy the feeling somehow after the whole thing is over
but the feeling of falling down, freely and effortlessly
scared the hell out of me
physically and mentally
hahaah
for falling is just way tooo easier
and it's sad when there's nothing trying to seize you back
somehow it's jst uneasy =.=
haiz
why i can rmb dreams and images so clear
much much clearer than whatever i'm supposed to rmb +__+
if only i can memorize kanji and everything else this much *__*

nvm
should return to the darling*** projects =.=

i think i should find some part-time T_T
thou i have no time for it T_T sighhhhhh

lastly i'm always serious when talking abt Ohchan =.='
believe me i genuinely wanna have a son like him :*
LOL
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あの日のお父さんの目は忘れられない
ずっと私にじっと見ていた
いつかまた出会えるかなっ、その目が言ってたような感じがした
本当の娘が離れる時みたい

愛されたなあ～私が思ってた
私が本当に恵まれるな、二人と出会えることに

だから
だから出会うが良ければ良いほど、別れるのがその幸せさほど痛いよ
別れが必然のを知ってるけれども、いつも凹んでる
だから別れは嫌なんです！苦手なんです！
別れられない出会いがあるのかなぁ



P.S.: 嵐= storm
ナミ= wave
i love these words <3 :*
maybe 魚、海、青 can be in the list also XD