it's just annoying

once in a while i would become really paranoid
irritated by anything and everything
maybe i;m kind of in that mood now
as in nothing goes wrong but i just somehow find faults with everything
like just now when i read abt human weakness and stuff
abt how they only want to die coz what they seek is not genuinely in this world

this kind of conclusion annoys me most out of everything else
maybe partly coz i'm the type who never really experiences depression in the 1st place
or i'm just really optimistic by nature
nevertheless i cant comprehend if someone resolutes themselves on dying coz what they seek never really exists
i only call it irresponsible and selfish
if you wanna die that badly, choose some other brilliant way
just kill yourself out of depression is kind of pathetic dont u think
i'm just really annoyed and angry by that types of thoughts

is it true that there's nothing else in this world that means sth to you?
what abt whoever gave birth to your existence?
why do you think other pple have to strive so hard in this sucky cruel world to survive? and yet a normal being without any defects, howeve sucked up life may turn out to you, can you just leave it and die? coz you cant find the thing that you want?

excuse me it just proves that you're no more than a self-centered child seeking attention of pple yet you dont want to get hurt or take responsibility of your life

isnt the cruelty of life, the dissapointment and depression and pain that you experienced makes you treasure your happiness and the meaning of success?

well maybe i'm just really idealistic and dumbass coz i've been doting on since young but yes i hate that kind of attitude towards life

there're pple who want to live so badly and struggling every minute with disease to live on for a few more seconds for their daughter's wedding, yet there're stupid pple who own their whole resourceful living time just want to throw it away?

i really irritates the helll out of me
yet you call yourself educated and identifying yourself as some sensitive beings?
it's no more than jsut cowardness

phhhhhhh..... =.='
dunno what gets into me but i'm just really annoyed reading those lines
if you want to die so badly, dont wait until your 20s sth and wasted all the money and effort of your parents and society

and the fact that those lines area made public irritates me even more
like wth it's nt any kind of heroic thoughts or sth, what are u trying to promote? tsk

=.=
ok get back to my life
decide that i should shape up myself T_T and got to earn some money
hehe
Ohchan hontou ni kawaii ne :D
and i just finished another fan vid for my dear Ohchan ahha <3
:X