blah =.= manga and anmag

i'm just escaping reality rite
i know it's pathetic T_T bt i need to come out with a solution 1st =.=
but manga in its own way reminds me of my problems haha
it's just growing up, encouter, accompanionship, farewell, career.... LIFE
i always fret graduating to be honest and now it does come true
just coz it marks the like of 'shakaijin'... can be translated as adult with responsibility to family and society
and no more excuse for irresponsibility or slack
in my perception

and what i dislike the most is the connection of people and people
just exactly how most of mine is up until now in my life
except for my parents and my sister, there's no other guaranteed relationship... or they're just too frail to withstand space, distance and time

everyone is crossing your life without you having any say in it
like any inevitable things in life
or maybe your decision doesnt make much difference =.= ... coz it's nt strong enough

though people is desperately seeking life-time companionship
most of us scare commitment and trust ... one way or another
after all there really is no guarantee haha
it's people's choice
daring to bet their love and trust or not
even if it hurts
there should be no complaints even if it's nt a right choice rite
the decision is after all ...yours to make
shouldnt dump it all on situation and circumstances

haha maybe's that why i want to have children LOL
coz other than that, nothing feels sustainable enough
... see no matter how idealistic i am, i cant believe that easy in ideal world haha

a little bit more...
haiz

Abe Miyuki's manga is nice
building on relationship btw people and people... how stranger and stranger might just devote themself unconditionally and daringly without any regrets
and i respect any mangaka who put efforts in all the tiny details of their drawings
spectacular and meticulous
ok that's it for an entry
see you some time soon mr bloggies hehe




the song is about a girl's endless wonder of life, of dreams, of growing up,of living, of farewell...
so i find it really moving
maa somehow the more grown up i am, the more of a crybaby i am =.=
haha maybe i overcame the feeling of how uncool crying is
it's jsut showing your emotion a bit more openly and there's nothing wrong with such
though maybe crying out loud is still nt acceptable for me hahaha =.=