さよならが嫌がる私

so i'll be working soon i guess
kinda nervous wondering how would it turn out ><
but hopefully as long as i try my best, it should be ok
and i must improve my Japanese more
...
sigh
there's jsut this tinge of jealousy of sth very ridiculous =.='
but well it' ok, i'm at least a grown-up and know how to deal with this all
but it's always this resentment of farewell deep inside me
i really dislike it so much and there's a saying that god would give you sth you dislikes the most in Vnese
... and eventhough i'm trying to remain neutral towards almost everything... farewell is still definitely sth i cant get over =.='
farewell... the end of a relationship w someone or something
i hate it as it parts me with people i like and things i hardly came by T_T
and maybe coz i hate it so much, i would just have to deal w it to the point when every farewell, every goodbye becomes insignificant =.='
i dont even think there'll be such time though T_T
so i'm gonna be irritated by the hell of it for the rest of my life

even though on a positive view, one still say there'll be reunion and chances for new encounter, farewell still signifies the end of the present
and present matters a lot
the seperation in time and space means a lot... so i still hate it to the core T_T
...
ok enough emo ><
haha i should still look forward
Ohchan, arashi XXXD
we can make it through !!! YEaH!

and this song rings in my mind ><
さよならの時の静かな胸
ゼロになるからだが耳をすませば

The still heart at the time of farewell
it will become zero but please try listening closdely and see