haiz
maybe i'm just being suspicious, which is quite abnormal for someone who more than often believes in everything pple said like me =.='
but
it's just hard to tell which is real and which is just for sake of business and socialization =.='
esp when it comes to working and the world of adults
i'm completely clueless
=.='
the other day my boss told me he wanted me to try liaising and selling products to Vietnam market =.='
i was like wth T_T
never expect myself to do sth business-like like that -.-
bt then and again i'm bored to death stuck at the office w mundane and tedious job
so i might as well just give it a try rite
on second thought, i dont know where this would lead me to and if it's anywhere near my dream =.='
damn it life is hard to deal w as of it now
i'm jst lost. sigh.
In this adult's world, pple's words are just hard to believe =.='
what can i do?
i should just not take any words easily? i should jst refuse to believe in human's goodness? i should just deny my phylosophy and motto and forget abt my ideoogy?
should i just lose myself in the process then T_T
anw like i said, it seems that my boss really hopes that i would be able to take over VN market @_@
sigh
dont expect of me too much
i hate to do anything under pressure and i dont like to disappoint anyone at all
like how i dont like to be disappointed at pple at all
it should not be the way how the world works rite
i'm not really emo now, jst confused and lost =.='
sigh
the book 'Sophie's world' does entertain me though
in a very intriguing way haha
though i'm nt that interested in phylosophy and i kind of know more or less all of these through my phylosophy course in VN university bt it's still genuinely pleasant to read :D
and i was alone for the whole week coz my roomate didnt return home =.='
well it comes to the point i take it as everyday matter and stop bothering abt it alr @@
bt still once in a while when you do really need sb to jst ramble on and on to release the stress on your mind, it's still better to have her ard =.=
and my mom told me she's busy to the point she has no time to talk w me
how sad is that
i mean on one hand it makes me sad that i'm nt her 1st priority
on the other hand it further saddens me as she still has to work so hard even though she's getting old nowaday -.-
and all i can do is sitting here rambling on and on w/o being able to help her since i still had this huge debt w NUS T_T
how i wish it would jst disappear one morning and i have no business w this boring country =.='
well nt that i want to return VN yet @@
see, i conflict myself in every single aspects =.='
maybe i should jst stay children and stop comtemplating abt the world and human and anything at all =.= hahaa
that's perfect.
listening to Robinson and forget abt all of this T_T
and why is it that i still have no time doing anything after work @_@
sigh
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