when i have nothing much to look forward to at weekend except for my koto practice
and no money to enjoy shopping alone
and no gathering or whatsoever hangout
and exactly no one to really talk to or just whining to
how sad =.=
there's just no motivation to pull me ahead at this moment =.=
even just some meaningless encouraging word or a pat on my head saying that i've been trying hard... is kind of surreal =.=
even though i already have to forget abt the excitement of being inspired in my lectures and bear with the monotonous tedious job
even though i have to struggle with all the technical terms of chemicals i've never touched in my life and force myself into using the business-like language and manner on daily basis - the exact kind of attitude that i always detest and despise
i wonder if i werent so spoiled to begin with, my never-ending complaints would ever stop... somehow =.='
what kind of future am i heading to, dear me =.='
it's just frustrating when no one actually tried to put themselves in your shoes and see with your eyes? or is it just another matter of reality that i should just get used to =.=
after all just dont expect too much to ever get disappointed ... i guess it's always true for dreamers like me =.='
and i'm listening to Seisshun ikinokori game by Spitz again
yeah
even if the whole world is just an ironical lie, i still have to forcefully believe in this reality somehow and stide forward =.='
i need to survive this living game on my own =.=
i should jst not get emo during weekend +__+
well i would probably sleep like dead when i reach home anw
sigh
...a matter of life
3 comments:
Not totally true ^^
And even though they're some meaningless encouraging words, "You've been trying hard. Your effort will be paid someday, so just don't give up now ^^"
[And about a hand patting your head part, I don't think you could stay conscious seeing a hand coming out of the LCD screen, hahaha, so ... I'll pass then]
How about reading some book, then ? It may not be very expensive. I've just finished "If only it were true"(original title is "Et si c'était vrai...") by Marc Levy. It's quite nice and romantic, I think.
Cheers XD
haha thank you
i've read Marc Levy and the book that you suggested
bt it's nt really my taste ><
anw i still got loads of other things to read
aanw after sleeping so much, everything feels fine LOL
jst that sometimes i did sth stupid and got punished for that haha
Since I don't really know what happened; didn't experience exact situation that you did, ... it's not right to say anything in the first place. And so, the only thing I can do is lend you a listening ear after all.
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