half-hearted and whole-hearted

so that's the end of my trip to Thai
the four days passed without me being able to help much even though my boss kept repeating that i've been of much help to them =.='

and Bangkok ridiculously resembles my Saigon haha
maybe still more luxurious at some parts but basically i found it familiar and nostaligic to the point of weirdness since it's my 1st time there

maybe i'm just longing home

on another note, i just finished the latest chapter of Kimi ni todoke
...
it's sad to say bt i still find myself addicted to this shoujo manga
haiz... i'm supposed to past that age, admiring this type of cheeky and cute love in manga @_@
erm... i just cant really grow up maybe haha or is it that i'm nt allowed myself to completely grow haha

and i'm still neglecting on seriously learning Japanese T_T
damn me i'm been too easy with myself T_T

i'm definitely not that busy bt my time slips before i realized it

having too many hobbies are kind of troublesome sometimes +_+

anw this world is complicated and i dont know how many percent i could believe in others' words but for now let me take it for granted that it's 98% true when people around me talk to me +_+

so i've been talking quite a lot with my bigger boss in this trip (i've never really been able to talk with him =.=)
and listening to his story, i really feel that i might as well be able to fit completely well with this company and that i should stick to it and devote mmore +_+

somehow i just strongly felt that there's a connection somewhere in his whole working life's motto and my ridiculous ideals of the world =.='

nevetheless they did nt forget the chance to invoke on me some of their expectation casually +_+ which more or less is still pressure to me at certain extent +_+

i do feell more optimistic though, the relief that i might not be stuck in the mundane office work forever

and meeting the customers gave me more insights on how the industries is
there're certain parts where the person in charge is not even sure of what he's doing and they're more or less clueless and lost like me

this is just to say that it's really the responsibility and the morality when one does try to enlighten another party on certain aspects

and of course it's to build trust and reputation when it comes to sale
... anw i mean it's really the point that you need to believe strongly and wholeheartedly of the one you're trying to promote
...or at least to me that's how i perceive it

man maybe that's partly how i like the Japanese spirit
i need to live there no matter what ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh


i cant let time slip this fast
i relaly need to do something about my Japanese man +_+
haiz

suddenly i wanna feel the icy breeze brushing through a field of cosmos in a late afternoon under the setting sun
haiz
oh dreamers.
there're too many amazing and wondrous things of this world i havent been able to experience rite!
ok... this entry is just a breif report of my inconsequential and disconnected thoughts +_+
one thing for sure is that i must try harder to work on both my Japanese and my work

and i'm going to cut my hair again...sooon i think hehe :D