....edit -__-' haha jst rmb sth very random i think i know where all my random, irrelevance, and incoherence in composing bog comes from -__-" definitely manga...deshou !!! basically there's s this huge turn in narrative of manga at the beginning of 1980s ~1990s which renders manga plots to break down in meanings and shift it focus out of narrative the scholar argued that readers since then no longer requires for a coherence or consistency of the narrative and the manga is created through a colletion of 'moe' elements (which can be roughly translated like elements that arouses/ excites readers)...blha blah blah ...maybe it's my manga consumption then -__-' or i'm just really random to begin with +___* hahah
for some reasons i find myself extremely immersed in all of these theories, of wars, of how did it happen and what becomes of after it @_@ why? i dont recall to have any slightest interest in wars since small or maybe the 'idealist' in me somehow grows unconsciously @_@ WHATEVER LOL =.=' i found myself stunned and curious to the max sitting on any lecture on history of wars first is the Japanese history of 20th century war and now is Geopolitics War and Peace @_@ pple like me wont make money dont they T_T spending their time contemplating on the war and peace hating politics and business ^:)^ sadddddd it's hard to strike the balance see and having a naive mind wont help all and all i just feel that i should really go into teaching or sth like inspiring or evoking wandering minds LOL what the hell is that?
and yeah i think i screwed up on the interview with JTB for what reason ? they asked me where i see myself in 5yrs time and being all naive and honest, i told them i'd go into grad school and may be teaching LOL !!! (like hth i could come up w such answer T_T) urghhhhhh whatever
sighhhhhhhh haha ok that's just my problem w being random and spotaneous and maybe blurrrrr it wont help me earn a decent job T_T sigh
and i'm still praying for it T_T aww plssssssssss you alr let me w too much disappointment see so pls ahhhhhh *talking not to human* hmmm :|
and lotssss of my friends are on vacation! and i'm here writing on terrorism on friday night for project T_T whatever ple
...on another random topic i want to read more xxxholic plsssssss T_T it's 2 wks for one chapter !!! like wayyyyy too slow :|
sigh oh and i think i'm alr whining abt it bt i jst found out that Ohchan listen to Kaela chan too after Kouhaku XXD just that i also happened to take favour in Kaela chan after she went on Arashi show haha see there's the same reference here rite LOL WHATEVER i'm just imagining lOL
and i miss otousan okaasan still ): haiz
@ pix: Ohchan @ Kouhaku XXD <3 :*
Friday, 26 March 2010
is it normal to feel hyper every morning !!! LOL well i just wanna post this photo so... XXD aahhhhhhhhhhhhh how adorable OMG over the rainbow LOL
one more week and the DVD will be delivered XXXXD i really really really cant wait for ittttttttttt ahhhhhhhhhhhhh will rewatch all the concerts at that time too XXD Ohchan your new drama is coming too ne~ ganbatte ne~ :* :X
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh Arashi my love my soul XXXD :X
oh yeah here am i wasting my time again the essay is still there unfinished *-__- work is still piling and time is still tickling away without me being efficient -__-#
everyone has their own life no matter how many times i repeat this term to myself, i tend to forget it somehow *__*
well the whole point is i'm just irritated these days coz of these stupid never ending projects and essays and my inefficiency annoys me even more -__-#
whatever
despite my over-optimism everything now is of smoky grey color to me will it get clearer or just become pitch black? omg who knowsssssss
it's this time of the year that treating me well or not doesnt make any difference coz it'll just mark different level of annoyance in me despite my effort of being nice T_T
whatever
i'm spoiled and selfish by nature
.....still praying earnestly for it no matter how i try to reason on the bright side of it, i'll definitely be incurably dissapointed this time round ;__;
if i'm not so greedy and wish for too much, then things are probably much more simpler now -__-* human always desires for things that they can hardly reach maybe hhaa and the conquering process is not always pink and full of roses you see
yesterday was a rainy day it should be a perfect day to be laze around, watching shows and sleeping =.= i did watch show T_T but you cant enjoy watching while having to analyzing it at the same time @_@ the whole 'watching' loses its 'enjoy' meaning all are how this detail/ scene can tie down to that concept =.= scutinizing where and how the theme/ concept is shown @_@ urghhhhhhh
that's why after submitting that stupid analysis i reward myself with another anime downloaded the other day :D hehe it's called Summer Wars by Mamoru Hosoda, the director of The girl who leapt through time XD hehe Summer wars is a bit different, takes place in the context the virtual world is highly developed and closely linked to reality through virtual manipulation, one can harm and toss the order of the real world it's really an interesting story on virtual communication and offline relationship a bizzare virtual with bumerous potential connecting chances as well as countless potential malwares waiting to be activated the beginning of the anime gave me really strong impression of Takashi Murakami though since it's almost identically alike Takashi's conceptual world intriguing indeed XXDD the graphic is nothing special except for that wondrous virtual world that mesmerized me so much LOL and the soundtrack is nice :D the trailer looks good too heard the movie won some awards looks like most of Mamoru Hosoda's works got awards -__-' sugeeeeee na
...i'm making onigiri again -.- since i have all the necessary ingredients and it's easy LOL the thing that turns me off most from cooking is the cleaning afterwards -__-' plus the 'i-cant-finish-such-amount-but-it's-not-worht-making-little' part so living together w my housemates temporarily makes that 2 aspects vanished at least i wont have to touch the washing dishes part T_T hehe
[day-dreaming] abt cooking for Ohchan XXD LOL -__-' anw i still needd to submit another 2 drafts for project T_T, one on Japanese dramas ad how it promotes ideology and the other is on some war movie and how geopolitics affects view of war in that movie -__-' urghhhhhhhhhh so many thingssss T_T
well let's go do it enthusically [impossible !!!] -__-
this is the piece that i love in the soundtrack of SUmmer wars ...like ahhhhhhh and a strong wind blows past you in the middle of a vast green meadow XD
then this is trailer of SUmmer wars
bottom line: Ohchan is sooooooooooooooooooo cute XXXD :X :* <3 @pix: who's this blackish cutie LOL hayaku bihadan ni nare yo LOL :X
today is one of my hyper day again XXXD LOL and while waiting the rice to be cooked to make onigiri (yes i'm making onigiri♪ XXD...my very 1st time though hehe XD) want to type down about the lecture again XXD LOL well it's Japanese popular culture if you wonder what lecture is that XD today is Religion haha well one of the topics that i hate to touch HOWEVER it is how religion is represented in Japanese popular culture, which is another story XXXD since i really love it haha well the thing is how Japanese anime and pop culture integrated religious elements into their products that is exciting and today the lecture focused on how Onmyoudou (sth like the way of Yin and Yang) is being presented XXXD that explains how i'm so hyper and excited!!! coz Onmyoudou in anime always links to super natural and fantasy XXXD totally my type XXXD ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i think my classmate who sat beside me saw my eyes sparkling (manga type of sparkling) LOL XXD wonder if she got scared LOL
anw well it's abt how this novel about Onmyouji actually creates this whole 'onmyouji fad' and draws so much attention on this historical figure (who i always thought to be a legendary character =.=) called Abe no Seimei XXD (if u're familiar w onmyouji anime, you definitely heard abt this name before XXD)
so thanks to the fad, Abe no Seimei is presented like a bishounen in manga/anime to applea to the mass and there're lots of imagination and representation based on his character which of course affects readers of their understanding of how Abe no Seimei originally was and how Onmyoudou was
so there's concern of how popular image can affect media consumers of their view of certain religion/ historical figure through various mediums
and depends on the creator, their purpose, the agenda behind them that images of certain religion is built maybe for satire, for criticism, for appealling to the younger generation...
the thing is how far these 'makeover' can be tolerant it may become very serious when political agenda underlines the representation for certain purpose
see that's how powerful media can be and how ridiculous ubiquitous politics can be, appearing in every and anything =.= necessary evil huh haha
anw i finish making onigiri XXXD well let's say it's quite successful XD <3 just that i dont have budget to buy mentaico (spicy cod roe) and make mentaico onigiri (Ohchan's fav) well in the near future then hehe XXD
last bt not least i love OHCHAN XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXD <3 :* LOL why am i so hyper? =.='
i've been re-reading the email for nnnnnnnnnnn time =.=
mahhhhhh mayb i'm tooo free or mayb i just wanna feel the frail connection that hopefully manages to withstand for a few more months
sigh if one wishes hard enough, would there wish come true? wishing alone is nt enough ... that is certainly for that wish to come true, be ready to sacrifice even if the price having to pay is costly =.= ...seems like i start talking in xxxholic-manner alr @_@ lol the after-effect
i know i'm acting all selfish and spoiled =.= unreasonably and deliberately like always and it definitely hurts bt somehow it's jst my tendency to act spoiled and more than often vent all my nameless irritation on my family =.=' yes i'm the worst worstest ever
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i should really need to study hard now =.= what kind of reasoning is that? haha
in e end i'm just a spoiled sprat not wanting to grow up huh
hahaha just read xxxholic XXXD it is and it'll always be my most fav XXD no matter how many manga i've read, only xxxholic is and genuinely my way of thinking hahaha =.=' it's somehow problematic to say manga teaches you to think rite but xxxholic is that special to me <3 ...well not only xxxholic but yeah it contributes the most part LOL i used to love x1999... until i read xxxholic haha and tsubasa reservoir chronicle TRC however is more like a chronicle of Clamp's works so everytime i see a character of a another series re-appearing in TRC, it's like...ahhh so nostalgia XD she/ he's used to be that character XXD haha that's TRC
but xxxholic is different it seems slow and boring at first but it's my whole world of fantasy mixing together with my theory of balance, of neutrality, of nothing to be exactly right and wrong, of fantasy and dreams and connection, of coincidence and inevitability ahhhhhhhhhhhh i get excited just by talking abt it haha i laughed w it, cried w it, found myself deeply touched in a world of dreams and fantasy mixing up with reality
and it's gentle, admist of the bizzare scenes and happenings in the manga it's gentle yet determinedly strong at needed time haha
and it's sth i can just laugh off, forget to read for decades and whenever i return, it's just there, remaining intact and profound exactly like my thoughts, my perception, my obsession, my view of world and things XXD hehe
i havent read it since arashi fandom lol that's quite long but it's partly coz the pace of publishing each chapter is slow anw and so when i read it today the whole 'xxxholic' world just moves again after all this time being in hiatus XXD
the recent chapter is abt meeting and parting... and the pondering poetic question of will there be a meeting without having to part and coincidetally, w/o reading it, it is what on my thought recently... haha maybe not coincidentally bt 'inevitably' to have the xxxholic feel haha
i will buy the whole collection when i have money dear hehe watanuki XXD lol the title alone makes me totally fall for it xxxholic XXXD <3
today is somehow an adequately lucky day haha just based solely on the fact that my IP class is canceled LOL not that i hate it bt it's frm 6-9pm on friday nite =.= so..cant help feel so blessed when the class is canceled XD and i somehow managed to finish the class response on Vietnam war =.=' (hopefully decent enough =.=)
the problem with me is whenever i finish sth... as long as it's not toooooooooo bad, i immediately feel happy ^:)^ not coz of achievement rather it's the feeling of being released from some invisible worry haha =.=' ^:)^
anw the other lecture was Geopolitics War and Peace recently i found it very interesting lol maybe coz it's more relevant to me now since the topic now is on the Cold war geopolitical code and how it affected Southeast Asia XD it's reallly realllly intriguing! as you learn a lot of facts that seem very irrelevant actually all are connected and make a lot of sense to me as i grown up in that very place
i think the lecturer definitely felt a bit of angry when he explained to us what happened and how a lot of the information was covered or 'framed' nicely =.='
Today lecture was on the war in Cambodia and what may be the cause for the genocide happened there
Very shortly, US in 1960s was afraid of a dominoes effect that may take place in Southeast Asia if it falls into communism So around 1973 when US started to see its defeat in South VN, South VN became the next 'domino'. US governemnt also feared that other Indochine like Laos and Cambodia may become the 'next domino' to fall into communism so Cambodia was bombed intensely and for what reason ? bombing an agrarian country and most of the bombing was targeted in the rural, or with no clear target at all
and the bombing certainly left tremendous impact on the people there, the hatred, the indignation they held
after Saigon failed (in US view), US government started to build military base in Cambodia to prevent communism from VN but Cambodia itself has a lot of internal conflicts after the devastating bombing campaign of America
Khmer rouge started to form as opposing grp to the Cambodia government that is supported by US Khmer rouge was actually very clever as they realized children can be manipulated very well...as long as you teach them to shoot and kill, they wont argue or hestitate to kill :|
(i feel really disgusted at this part @_@)
they gathered a lot of children from those families that were bombed in the rural and since all of them felt indignant towards US
Khmer rouge used certain ideologies of Cambodian to tell their soldiers to kill, to revenge (the idea of revenge of Cambodian is truly scary... it's nt an eye for an eye but it's an eye for a body, an eye for the whole family ^:)^ *__* so that no one will ever avenge *__*) so that's partly how the genocide came about and for Khmer rouge, their initial target were pple living in the urban area as urban pple were associated with being closed to US, to evil, capitalism =.=' so Cambodian killed each other and killing happened even within the family as the children were taught to disregard whatever connection with their parents and love the leader only =.=
damn it they used children!!! that's the part that i felt so angry and disgusted so cruel and filthy (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) well coz personally i love children and how innocent, pure and imaginative they are and seeing how they were used to kill(!!!) not on anime but in real life ^:)^ and kill their parents!!!! it's just horrendous and abhorrent! the worst
=.=
anw return to the genocide VN army actually fought those Khmer rouge partly coz there was dscrimination and lots of Viet-Khmer were killed, then fight on the border of VN and the disrespectful attitude of Khmer towards VN
and when VNese actually brought the downfall of Khmer rouge, there was a government back by VNese established in Cambodia which was harshly criticized by international community partly of the ill intention and mainly coz of the geopolitical code at the time when VN was still perceived as a threat of communism
and do you know why Cambodia genocide received so much attention and coverage from the press? it's all thanks to US's media that 'framed' the genocide and VNese soldiers (coz at the same time in East Timor, another genocide also happened but it's hardly known of) =.=
and it was ridiculous when US, one of the very 'cause' of this whole Khmer rouge thing actually returned and supported them when the VN army withdrew frm Cambodia (probably use them as a buffer against communism ?!!!)
and the Khmer rouge still survived and excercised their violence rampantly =.=' till 1990s and became constant threat to UN representatives as they kidnaped and killed lots of foreigners =.='
..... well last lecture i felt that VN was extremely unlucky to choose everything a bit wrongly =.=
but after this lecture, seems like VN is still much much more lucky than Cambodia
it is really horrible for such a small country in the span of 30 yrs to suffer that much =.=
thanks a lot to geopolitical code of Cold war =.=!!! some imaginary concepts that costs lives of civilian and destruction =.=
well i have nothing to say abt politics and religion but i genuinely do not want to touch it =.=' again... necessary evil =.=
seems like this lecture intensifies my hatred to the thing i alr hate...however neutral i wanna remain ...
wondering how those children may feel when they grow up and understand about the thing they did to their family ... or maybe they still remained feeling and understanding nothing at all ...
haiz such a long and wordy post ^:)^ amazed at myself for actually typing them out ...
word for today: 2 options now T_T war ? orr children ? ahha
=.=' that's it now should be time for IP projects @-@
btw the link below is McNamara on Vn war quite interesting actually
Kamikaze girls is recommended interesting take on Japanese pop culture and the participation of youth amusing movie indeed XD esp for those who love Japanese pop culture
War movies are all about framing and extremely controversial in that sense Geopolitics is interesting indeed haha and poor the prof when some student emailed ask him "How am I supposed to feel touched when watching that video?" --> ... it it were me --> how the hell do I know if you're some cold hearted smart ass who couldnt feel moved T_T =.=
and i think i know clearly why btw Japanese studies and CNM, japanese studies is sooooo much more appealing =.=' not just the lecture, it's the people also =.= whatever
that's it for today T_T
http://yamakaze067.vox.com/library/photo/6a011015f527fc860b0123de06e2c8860c.html Ohchan's role XD kawaiii <3 :*
well this is the song for the weather forecast session on Zoomin (Japanese morning news) Otousan also listens to it every morning XXD haha i like the song anw XXD i mean Arashi's songs in general <3 LOL upbeat, encouraging, positive :* :* :* fit 'hyper' like me perfectly well XXD
On a night I couldn't help but cry The city beyond the glass glittered and I saw crowds try not to be left behind in this ceaseless time
Either following the flow or being washed away Even if sometimes we can't see anything Open your eyes and don't look away There's certainly light there
Facing the headwinds and growing up Don't care if I'm beaten by heavy rain Tomorrow, the rain will definitely let up And the sun will be waiting, right?
Although I was beat-up that day A brightly shining dream will always Strongly, strongly be there
Shake it, shake it, shake it more No matter when, we'll always keep running through this "now", "now", "now", right? In order to understand the separate meanings, Going, going, going on higher
Gently, gently, gently fluttering Living in this moment Always feeling only this "now", "now", "now" The past and the future are all shining Step by step, walking firmly to begin "now"
Like waves that come close and then fall back Changing while repeating Those footsteps left behind every day Are certainly moving forward
Before you knew it, the times had changed Don't care what I'm told anymore A "me" that's become stronger since then is waiting, right?
Even a once monochrome scenery Can be painted to become beautiful Since it's ahead of me
Turn, turn, turn more No matter when, we'll always keep searching for A dream, dream, dream, right? The voices add one by one Going, going, going on smile
Lightly, lightly, lightly blooming Living in this moment Always feeling only a dream, dream, dream The things I want to show you Everything, every little thing is crammed in And going to you now
Hoping the wind blows to you Hoping it reaches you And hoping you laugh Like I imagine The story is continuing to go on And then, we'll meet again by chance This is my life
Shake it, shake it, shake it more No matter when, we'll always keep running through this "now", "now", "now", right? In order to understand the separate meanings, Going, going, going on higher
Gently, gently, gently fluttering Living in this moment Always feeling only this "now", "now", "now" The past and the future are all shining Step by step, walking firmly From here and now
practising singing this song =.=' it's fast XXD which is good for practising speedy Japanese =.='
ytd i came across some fan-cam vid on youtube of Ohchan's old stage play it was so touching and cute when he couldnt refrain crying at the ending coz the feeling of achievement it was his very 1st stage play, very 1st individual challenge as Arashi member... must've been working very hard <3 at such young age oh dear all the more reasons for me to work harder!!! :*
i sleep too much T_T i know that i sleep toooooooooo much T_T my brain tells me dont bt i cant refrain physical self ORZ i think i probly slept for 3/4 of sunday wtf ^$#U)$@) @_@ that's how i couldnt afford doing anything else T_T even watching arashi's shows properly like wth *_* i hate doing things half-heartedly this way ^:)^ urghhhhhh it'll be horrible frm now towards the end of March *__* i can only see deadlines on my planner o.O and nothing else =.= no job money Japan wtf
T_T and in between all the naps on that lazy drowsy sunday i dreamt of riding a roller coaster and it always scares the hell out of me when the roller coaster drops ... though i would enjoy the feeling somehow after the whole thing is over but the feeling of falling down, freely and effortlessly scared the hell out of me physically and mentally hahaah for falling is just way tooo easier and it's sad when there's nothing trying to seize you back somehow it's jst uneasy =.= haiz why i can rmb dreams and images so clear much much clearer than whatever i'm supposed to rmb +__+ if only i can memorize kanji and everything else this much *__*
nvm should return to the darling*** projects =.=
i think i should find some part-time T_T thou i have no time for it T_T sighhhhhh
lastly i'm always serious when talking abt Ohchan =.=' believe me i genuinely wanna have a son like him :* LOL ------------
just wanna note down that i love the movie XD Alice in the wonderland <3 it's just so cuteeeeeee like whatever remains in my memories of the wonderland in the picture book i had when i was in small all the giant flowers, colorful mushrooms, smiling cat, tea table, card queen's golf, running rabbit with its clock XD ahhhhhhhhh that's it that's it and Johnny Depp was so cute in his role hat maker that gets panicked easily ahhaa and ANne Hathaway in her super exaggerated royal manner LOL yeah that's it well for a better understanding , go watch the moive yourself LOL i;m always a fan of Alice in the wonderland anw bt the movie is cyte XXXD haha i'm nt sure what i'm typing alr literally still sleepy head in morning =.= btw ytd i played Haru no hi for koto it's a nice piece :* and i love it practising till your shoulders and hands die =.= bt i'd love it more if sensei has the cd so i can memorize the melody watched two documetaries on Vietnam war also will write abt it soon when i feel more awake o.O
Ohchan just dyes his hair XXXD This color makes his skin look so dark though =.=' haha anw it's too much for a friday nite! after 6-9pm lecture, there's a long 'loved' email for how i have neglected and ignored my responsibility (!) nice framing thanks it's really great adding up to all my frustration of mid-terms and piles of unfinished projects and irritation of having to post sth on forum
so there it goes again well it's embarassed to waste your tears on things like this extremely embarassed =.= should train to restrain myself better
work harder work harder work harder watch Arashi and ignore all those unpleasant stuffs
there's no time to feel disappointed believe what you believe and do what you have to do! dont lose sight of your passion and dont regret what you chose that's it simple
like the lyrics of troublemaker XD lol ganbare ganbare ganbare~~~
haha i'm somehow always inspired to compose blog on thursday after Japanese studies lecture XXD well since it's inspiring and thought-provoking as always XXD and on topic that i'm most interested XXD today lecture is on gender and its portrait in media XD another engaging lecture so the topic should be gender for this entry *keep in mind keep in mind* ><
again she question the 'socially constructed gender' in contrast to the biological gender the social gender is more or less the gender role assigned to us by social norms so what does all this chaos causing by 'gender role' mean anw? SInce it's socially constructed, why cant we just ignore and forget abt it? why cant there be 2 gender in 1 physical body hahaa that's whole lot of interesting question XD LOL why? bt it's hard to say since we grow up in society and have been educated with this hetereosexual mind and constantly reminded our 'assigned' role by society and people around us so in one way or other, our mind and taste already is shaped in that certain path of thought
pple often say things like i'm very open to homosexual really? are you open or you're just open for the sake of being an open-minded individual? in which case makes you all the more discriminated haha
if you're really dwelled on the question and seriously think about the constructed gender role and why it is so that's when you may have a more open view towards homosexuality still for me i wouldnt say i have anything against them bt the 'biological needs' part just somehow off =.=' LOL but well i read yaoi manga and shonen-ai lol
so in a way i accept such thing in manga bt just not in reality -.-' well i'm saying i'm quite conservative in that sense =.='
back to the social gender role it's very interesting that in Japan, male dressing up as female can sell and appear publicly and pervasively in media but not the other way, female dressing up as male why? isnt it interesting why is it that 'male entertainer' being accepted and not female? in the end though we argue that there's challenge to the 'social gender role' in such and such to try to break the norm of being 'masculine' and 'feminine' bt it still pretty much reflects the patriarchical society of Japan in the very way of its process rire?
hahaha and i love Japanese variety showsss XXD it's jsut too entertaining and amusing haha and thought-provoking once you critically watch it XD
as always i'm overwhelmed with the flow of thoughts and ideas and questions XXD
still i need to go back and do the stupid project on how Facebook is a innovative Internet application T_T arghhhhh
and the weather is really ^$*@%*$)_@ been consumed extravagantly tissue ^:)^ well tissue translates into money you know T_T and using too much tissue = scratching your nose ^:)^ and in light of such irritation causing by nose allergy, i recommend all the people not to touch cigarette or else your child would suffer like me T_T at least think of other pple before you try to pick up cigarette =.= well i still dont get why thinking can be associated with smoking =.=' there're plenty ways of thinking without smoking rite =.= basically i just cant stand cigarette and smoker o_O
well living a normal life is complicated itself see @_@ with all the trivial worries and irritation =.=
today one of my friend told me that he doesnt want to think of anything as 'boring' or 'plain' well i think he wants to say that he has no discrimination against anything, good or bad as in open to everything and accept them wholeheartedly and work and live for it to the fullest makes me think abt career again there's a time that i think anything that you've been assigned to do, maybe it's boring but you'll find sth interesting out of it along the way so i thought i wouldnt be bothered w any type of job bt still it's again another ideal =.= i have low toleration for stuff that i dont like in the 1st place basing on how i choose modules to learn and how i dropped the mod or jsut ignored it if it's nt to my liking i dont think i can stand the job that is monotonous and mundane =.=' well i may try really hard bt would somehow give up. =.= haiz oh i'm far away frm the topic of today *__* lol ... wish that all the things i need to do is done =.=' LOL
and i'm going to watch ALice in the wonder land 3D SOOONNNNNNN XXD :***
and Oh chan is just so adorable <3 ~ XXD ahhhhhhh i can die in your sweetness :* :X <3
it's this performance that i cant get you out of my head XXD <3 Ohchannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
i cant believe it !!! there are pple who have too much time on hand to go and correct my typo =.=' OMG =.=' and whatever i wrote wasnt even meant to be public *_* maybe i can ask them help me editting my paper if they have so much time =.='
sigh. see, my friends who took Jlpt2 all got their results alr. they all passed and i still havent got mine and chances are that i wont make it coz i didnt manage time very well and screwed up the paper T_T
sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh T_T then all the projects are pouring down on my head *__* not to mention the ridiculous weather of singapore blessed me with allergy, fever and headache T_T wth ^:)^ well partly it's my fault for being such a lame procrastinator still there're too many thingssssssssss to do >< and i still havent secured any job oh and all the financial worry is coming into the picture as well t_T i dont wanna think abt it but reality is w/o money there're just lots of things you cant do T_T
ahhhhhhhhhhhhh and wth i feel so sleepy these days T_T which reduces the time that should be used for projects T_T screw you, loser! just go to hell alr *__*
... i'm nt really sure if the host family received my email alr...last time otousan didnt figure out that it was my email and ignored it for a whole month *_* haha
and my friends will be going to Japan this march ahhhhhhhhh sakura T__T sighhhhhhh
need to return to my piling projectsss now T_T
anw this fanvid is really nice :D i love Haku in Spirited away...well another ideal romance of my taste XXD it's mutual support you see, Haku helps CHihiro but CHihiro also rescues him and they are kind of 'destined' to meet each other in that fantasy setting ...a reunion after their past encounter XXXD ahhhhhhhh i jst love it and the image of the white dragon XXXD is soo kakkoii XXD <3 oh my fantasy realm :*
...and i ordered Arashi concert tour 5x10 DVD(of course i've been waiting for it monthsssssssss)...which adds up to the poverty picture i'm being drawn to =.=' haizzzzzzzzzz
