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what's this feeling
i dont know whether i've tried my best or not T_T
but i feel like i'm out of the play alr
sigh
now gotta get in new one -__-
there's no time to feel sad abt it seriously T_T
rite

dare ka tasukete kureru kai?

＠＿＠頑張って～

gonna have interview later T_T
wish me luck Ohchan dear <3~

面接を受けに行きます～
願いが届きますように、頑張りましょう！
悔いがないように、動力しましょう！
頑張ります！！！


夢のため、食うため、生きるため、愛する人のそばにいるため！！！
愛された分まで、強くなれ！

近い道がないから、信じる道行くしかないから

huh =.='

2 more papers
ganbatte!!!

XD

ありが とうって言ったら
永 遠 にさよならになる

from the song above


...負けないでもう少し
最後まで走り続けて

i'm also itchy to do things other than studying Ohchan T_T
頑張りましょう～

...sigh
just disappointed with my childish reasoning and behaviors =.=
it's not gonna lead me anywhere T_T

random of random

夢のしずく (Yume no Shizuku)
Performed by: 松 たか子 (Matsu Takako)
source: http://flashtrigger.wordpress.com/2007/09/29/%E5%A4%A2%E3%81%AE%E3%81%97%E3%81%9A%E3%81%8F-yume-no-shizuku-lyrics/


愛よりも恋よりもはやく　あなたに出逢ったいたずらが
私のすべてを変えてゆく 恋におちてゆく…


出逢いは簡単 今どうして切ない?
別れ繰り返し 人は愛を求める

幾つもの夜に 溢れる涙重ねて
背中合わせの二人 離れる? 寄り添う?

この星に漂い続ける あなたと私がめぐり逢う
指先に愛を感じたら 心ほどけてゆく…

大きな波のように 深い海みたいに
吹き抜ける風のように あなたを包みたい

愛される度に 私になっていくの
凍りついた心 抱きしめ溶かして

二度と会わないと決めた時　この胸は痛むのでしょうか
手のひらで愛を見つめたら もっと自由になれる

伝えたいもっと 限りない想いを
もう何もかも 失ってもいい
この恋がすべて この瞬間何かが
生まれたら きっと それは…

紅い花びら舞い落ちてく 青い葉の雨のしずく達
あなたを愛した夢のあかし 朝日に消えてゆく

愛よりも恋よりもはやく　あなたに出逢ったいたずらが
私のすべてを変えてゆく 二人おちてゆく…

伝えたいもっと 限りない想いを
もう何もかも 失ってもいい
この恋がすべて その時何かが
生まれたら それは…

伝えたいもっと 限りない想いを
もう何もかも 失ってもい
この恋がすべて その時何かが
生まれたら きっと…



Faster than love faster than a crush, our encounter ironically
changed everything about me, and I fell in love…

The encounter is that simple, so why am I now sad?
Always parting again and again, people search for love
The counteless nights the overflowing tears has stacked up
The two of us who always fight, are going to leave each other? or get closer?

As long as this planet continues to turn, you might meet me again
Once feeling love through this fingertip, this heart will also be able to reach an answer

As the way of a big wave, as the way of deep ocean,
As the way the wind blows through, I want to　wrap around you
Every time I am loved, embrace me or something like that
And this frozen heart of mine will melt

When deciding to never meet again, my heart also hurts right?
Opening our hands to　search for love, we will be more free

I want to convey to you more, this endless thoughts of mine
But maybe there's nothing else
It's ok even if all of this love is lost
At this very moment if something is born... surely it will

The dance of the faliing red flower petals, the drops of the blue leaves rain
The proof of the dream that I had loved you, is disappearing with the morning sun

Faster than love faster than a crush, our encounter ironically
has been changing everything about me, making both of us fallen

I want to convey to you more, this endless thoughts of mine
But maybe there's nothing else
It's ok even if all of this love is lost
At this very moment if something is born... surely it will


I want to convey to you more, this endless thoughts of mine
But maybe there's nothing else
It's ok even if all of this love is lost
At this very moment if something is born... surely it will




oh reading week begins
as always i'm still stuck with one report =.='
and admidst all the craziness, Matsu Takako's songs sound incredibly calm ...
a bit emo though haha
emo in a positive view ... -_-'
haha my limited vocab T_T
...as in the lyrics is beautifully saddening as it often picturizes farewell, solitude but the depictions flow in a nonchalant manner, a matter-of-fact way
coz human are weak, hence all those feelings are more or less unavoidable
it's the helplessness of human that makes it emo
at the same time, the matter-of-fact manner somehow neutralizes that depressing view of it
... so to me it's really emo but not negative -__-' haha

well whatever

as fot the song above, it's not like i'm thinking about love haha
nowaday love to me = Ohchan XXD
that's it
...just that the thought of love conveyed in the song
is reminiscent to me in one way or another
whatever haha

@pix: awww my heart throb XXXD
becoming a kid LOL
adorableeeeeeeeeeeee aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

dorama ganbatte ne ~
ki wo tsukete kudasai riida ~

and so it comes...and will be gone

and so i'm spending my official last day in school
my last class is frm 6-9pm tonight

well, i have no particular feeling though
there's still lots of things to worry about ><
but maybe...a little bit of suspense
the feeling of anticipation a farewell to come
for better or for worse who knows

one thing for sure
is that i will never be able to take Japanese in NUS with the same people any more...
i know perfectly well at least that fact
sigh...starting to get emo hahah

maybe that's why i stuck to this song so much



ただ皆と同じぐらい日本語のクラスが好きだよ
仲間よくして、一緒に一生懸命頑張っていた
なんか日本語のクラスの雰囲気が優しくて、暖かくて、私が大好きだよ
皆と過ごした時間を忘れないようにして、私の大事な思い出です。
皆も日本語も大好きだ～

これから多分会えるのは難しいけれども、皆それぞれ頑張ってね～
またどこかで会いましょう～

愛しい日本語の皆さへ。

オレンジ

certainly it's not all about what's been on my mind but it makes up large parts of it
orange can be pretty misty and somber rite

anw the 5x10 concert is defintely touching and unforgettable
eventhough i've only seen it on DVD
yet it doesnt fail to capture and enthrall my heart

you're my soul soul いつもすぐそばにある
譲れないよ、誰も邪魔できない～

literally and figuratively

coz it's for my Ohchan LOL

一瞬と永遠
レミオロメン


履き古した　スニーカーの踵を踏んで　ジャンプする
遠くまで飛ぶイメージのまま　白線さえも越えてゆけ

永遠の彼方からこぼれ落ちて　流れ星にしがみついた
目を離した枕元に　そんな夢を幾つ残した

希望の色は空色　見上げるけど飛べないまま
僕は僕だよと呟けば
ありのままでいる事はこれほど難しい

下駄箱の中　埃のにおい　くすむ思い出は灰色
描いた背中　鏡の姿　ちぐはぐ過ぎて笑えない

一瞬の隙間から　はがれ落ちて　流れ星にすがりついた
目を覚ました枕元に　そんな夢を幾つ残した

希望の色は空色　見上げるのさ飛べるまで
僕は僕だよと呟けば
ありのままでいる事はこれほど容易い
いつだって旅の途中　いつもより荷物は少なめ
手を離して　宇宙になって
闇の中　羽ばたいて　ゆっくりと鳥になりたい

希望の色は空色　見上げるのさ飛べるまで

Stepping on the heels
Of my old shoes, I jump
With the image of flying far
I'll pass even the white line

I clung to the shooting stars
That fell from the other side of eternity
When I looked away
I'd left behind so many dreams like that on my pillow

The color of hope is sky blue
I look up, still unable to fly
If I murmur that I'm me
I never knew just being as I am
Was this difficult

The smell of dust in my cubbyhole
My dull memories are grey
The way I'd imagined my back, the way I look in the mirror
The images are too disparate I can't even laugh

I clung to the shooting stars that peeled off
And fell down from the crack of an instant
When I looked away
I'd left behind so many dreams like that on my pillow

The color of hope is sky blue
I'll look up until I can fly
If I murmur that I'm me
I never knew just being as I am
Was this easy
I'm always on a journey
I have less baggage this time
I'll let go of your hand and become the universe
In the darkness I'll flap my wings
Quietly wanting to become a bird

The color of hope is sky blue
I'll look up until I can fly




hehe
this is to begin this entry
the song is an energetic youthful song rite

i love this part a lot 「希望の色は空色、見上げるのさ飛べるまで～」....try hard to explain it bt well, i'm never good at explaining myself so nvm LOL

anw this song really touches me with its lyrics full of images and color, of the frustration of youth, the chasing dream, the responsibility and the energy to keep going ahead
kakkoi deshou
nee ~

and the DVD still hasnt been delivered to me (!!!)T_T
wth is that
now i'm in this dilemma of struggling not to watch the version that they alr uploaded on Internet
want to reserve my excitement, my emotion for my DVD omg -__-'

tempted to write abt Ohchan's adorableness LOL -__-
well adorable in every single way LOL
even the stubborn Ohchan who didnt want to admit of his allergy is so cute lol
basically it sounds a lot like me, hating to admit sth like that -.-
embarassment maybe haha
awww kawaiiiiiiiiiiiiiii
ho ho can wait for the dorama XXXD
i can imagine how i'll kill my throat by fangirling all over alr @_@
haha

the end of this semester is drawing near
the semester which marks the end of my student's time
yay, graduation
haha
become adult and live a responsible life
haha
sounds strange to me lol
bt i'll try my best ~
and i'll earn money to go to arashi concert and Ohchan XXXD
hahaha lol
as if it's the sole purpose of working LOL

haiz
for now i cant afford myself a decent grad trip LOL
well as expected all my money has been spent on arashi and last december trip to Japan
and now i'm drawing picture of my next trip to Japan alr =.=
as if it's the only place i ever want to go LOL
omg i'm darn good at imagining things haha

...well at some point before starting this entry, i thought of writing sth abt maturity and work and graduation etc...
and it ends up this way as always lol
well nvm, jst to end it, Ohchan ~
hahahaha

ganbaru shika nain da yo

どうしたらいいかと自分でよく質問している。なぜなら最近成功することがないです。
自分が一生懸命頑張っても、できないことが多いという真実がわかります。
無視しても、否定られることが多いので、一体なにができるかわからなくなっています。

振りしても現実が厳しいです。そんなに役に立たないか考えたこともありますね。
ただ我侭で、自分の夢を追いかけてはいけないということですね。でも自分の夢を追いかけないと、生きる理由も無くなってしまうでしょう。そういう人間になりたくないですが、今の状況で、どうしたらいいですか？

自分の人生を支えなければ成らないでしょう。誰にも頼れないでしょう。

本当にがっかりしています。自分にもっと頑張ってと思っていますが、結果が何もできない。
恵まれないとか縁が悪いとか理由じゃなくて、自分の限りでしょう。

頑張るしかないから、頑張っていますが何一言嬉しいニュースをもらえたら、自身になりますから、一つだけでもいいよ。お願い！
最近悪いニュースばっかりでしたね。



まあ。。。ここで文句してもなにも始まらない。
もっと頑張るべきだ！
近い道などないから、信じる道をいくしかないから
嵐がそばにいてくれるよ

well just on DVD

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i'm overwhelmed XXD
excited and overwhelmingly touched by the new DVD concert LOL
XXXD
Arashi my Arashi XXXD
everyone is so cute and the performance is really spetacular xD
hehe cant wait for the DVD XXD which should be arrived ard 8th of april XD
and i'll just turn crazy LOL
oh the boys are having 40hrs appearance per week on TV soon XD
to promote for their new shows i guess haha
well done boysss XD
this is exactly how and why i end up with empty pocket T_T

and i have a feeling that they're gonna release Arashi no SHukudai DVD also...which cant be missed T_T hahaha
omg

i'll die of commodity one day
nvm
after this week, there'll only be reports and Japanese exam and finals
and everything will be over for my time in NUS
not sure for better or for worse bt let's just enjoy it first
release frn school huh =.= haha

and what's pressing maybe is the fact that i'm still unemployed -,-
haha
well

anw i was very in love with Ohchan in his new photo shoot and interview with Miss.. (when did i ever not like him in his previous photo shoots and interviews haha)
Ohchan and his thoughts of marriage, of work with others
XD
yasashii yo ne, itsu demo
onaji omoi gurai pittari da yo <3
itsumademo ouen shite matteima~su :*

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@pix: arashi comm livejournal

....some few more hours T_T
onegai ga todokemasu you ni