on new apartment and miscellousnes

start the day by dropping my new watch onto the floor, which resulted in the visible crack on the surface ;_;

ok life in the new apartment somehow starts
need to admit that it's a bit scary walking alone early in the morning to work :|
even though it's not that deserted...still i was born w a chicken heart ...so :|

and the rain yesterday totally drenched all my laundry T_T
and i want a fridge

apart from that, everything is pretty fine
well needs to say the area is boring thou
maybe that's why it's cheaper haha

and the Internet is doing well so far :)

i'm still too lazy to start on the design project that was assigned to me due to the fact that everyone else is busy :|
(like i'm the only one who is free 3:-o for god's shake 8-)

and i want to finish Anna Karenina asap so that i can start on other new books :)

on a darker note
the thought about certain matter still haunts me and makes me despise both myself and a certain someone else so much
well it's unfair i'm the only one who have to think abt all of this crap and feel guilty and ashamed of it
well, blame my foolishness
still it's absolutely unfair and unreasonable for me to suffer alone
so i should just leave it and get over it soon

i'm always fine on my own and there's no reason i have to forfeit my free spirit for it at all
it's not worth my time, my care and my thoughts anw

from the beginning, there's no 'us', and there will never be.
so be it, it is I and me, all along.