wake up at 3am +_+

yes i woke up at 3.30 am or so and now am dead tired
i need some sleep and the world might be brighter than it seems now haha =.='
well at the very least, it does not feel as bad as usual since i dont have shoulder + back pain +_+
yes, aging and in a few more years, i'll become an obachan unable to enjoy life due to exhaustion and lack of vitality T_T
noooooooooooooooo

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i've gone back dreaming, so you must lead me through the day ...

yeah how i hate this state of dreaming of mine in which nothing is clear and defined
...or worse too ambiguous for my own good
and no one leads me to a 'right' answer

days are passing by with the same unresolved and unanswered question
even if i tried to force an answer out of it, it just remains illogical an incomprehensible

yes, it's hard to define and categorize everything clearly; that, i know all so well
but at the very least, there should be a satisfied answer since it is jsut a personal problem, surfacing at individual level.
yet, i cant in anyway possible opt a reasonable solution
and this inherent impulsiveness in me does not allow me to ...either

it's getting no where and it frustrates me to the highest level possible

again i told myself i should just leave and flee
that's it
rite =.='


well i want to go to the sea and free my useless thoughts h
vacation ~~~~