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this song has been lingered in my mind ever since i came across it
not only the melancholic tune that captures me, the lyrics lightening up lively as a slow mute movie in the 60s style with black and white image, of a young girl reading a farewell letter left by her lover, brings my mind to all state of wonder
a letter to bid a farewell without saying a word
..
wonder how this foreseeing farewell would be bid

for all my dearests

time is genuinely flowing and once you actually stop to look back, you can feel the flow ever strongest...

somehow it was so reminiscent for me the past few days as i was in an unbelievable reunion with my long lost friend
We were so young and innocent back then ...
the world was much pinkish and our worry was by far trivial

childhood is just really something truly amazing and unforgettable!

we must have changed so much growing up but the childhood memories still withholds such magical power to reunite some kind of mutual feelings in our long lost past
somehow i miss childhood all of a sudden!
the world was so different and our life was much simpler then..
we could just befriend and stay close unconditionally and faithfully

.. speaking of which makes me wonder if i will perceive my relationship now in the same manner in future

why do all people and places need to come and go all the time? it cant ever stop make me wonder...

everything..first just has the strongest and most memorable impact right
for all my dear long lost love :X:X:X

on friday note

it's been ages since my last post haha
maybe i've come to term with the adult world and stop wondering about the nonsense and coldness of the world...have i?

i have nothing in particular to pin down in this post...which is the most terrifying things cause it would mean emptiness and oblivion

it would mean my surrender and acceptance to the adult world (;-;)
...
selfish
yeah maybe i can start to ramble on it
human are selfish, to some extent
or maybe i have never met someone sefless yet

...but what is so wrong with it?
maybe selfishness induces one to snatch away and destroy others' happiness
it is hard to all stay happy and peaceful...?

well, the sad truth is that i am one of extreme selfishness
if there is some meter measuring human selfishness, mine must have been almost at the absolute level haha
which... as mentioned, could be a trigger to my evil and greedy heart
sigh

feel like listening to "the pleasure of the heart" from The piano now

it time for a change? to get rid of my wicked heart?
though i feel extremely calm and prepared, it is hard not to waiver and yield into the lure of temptation

in the end we tend to choose the comforting things right?

hmm
anw, it is the beginning of the weekend, so i should not be emo
emo, after all, does not suit me right?

:D