it has just dawned on me that it it 2013 now,
that most of my favourites are those of 2000s - my teenage time,
and that i have been existing for more than 26 years in this life...
how dreadful
here i am as most of the late 20s, facing the so-called mid-life crisis.
in this post-modern society, the youth are struggling with their sense of identity, their fear of the passage of time and yes, the key question for a definition of 'the life' they are in.
maybe we're too blessed that we do not have to face with the war or the burden of basic necessities, of life-death matters every single day...
what has human society grown into?
aren't we just supposed to survive by our instinct as other animals, without so much questions, desires, ambitions and guilt...
coincidentally or not, i encountered many ways of denoting life lately... or to rephrase it - an effort in explaining and reasoning the life they are surviving, since it serves as a means to prove their value & functionality in prolonging their existence.
blame it on the novel or blame it on the movie that my thoughts are woven in such dark notes
or it is just that the mid-life crisis does not allow one to paint it pink... or else they would not call it "crisis" i guess
"I do not know why I still continue to live... there is no reasons to, no purpose either... it is just that everyday you wake up, it is here, "life" and i just continue to go on - live. is there anything wrong with it?..."
it is somewhat the thoughts of the main lead in the movie i've just watched.
he is at mid-20s without much thing to expect in life...
survive must be the suitable word in denoting his way of life...
without nothing to lose and nothing to expect... as one must wonder if one has really lived his life?
...the other is the thought of an 60s man watching his friends and others at his age dying around him and wondering when his time will come...
"..we just live our lives quietly as redundant attachment of this life.." and "we would want to leave it when everything is still beautiful, when the ugliness of senility has not reached and destroyed the glory part of our life"...
... my quotes are not exactly what has been written but it is surely the concentration of it at the very least.
not only the young and ignorant of life are seeking what is their functionality in 'life' but the experienced, with devotion and contribution, as well still try to explain their prolonged attachment to their existence in life...
there you go.
life by the mid-20s and life by the mid-60s
at almost every moment of life, it is not easy to stop pondering on the question of the meaning of our existence..
arent we just supposed to live by instinct until life decides to revoke our rights to exist in it?
at times like this, some will reason that this is how human differs from animals..
yet at times when human chooses to succumb to their animal desire... they would conclude "human are animals after all..."
how amusing human creatures are in the quest of reasoning their existence
... and what was i about to address anyway in this post?
yes my mid-life crisis.
whether it is induced or self-induced... where it would lead one to or leave one at
all
are to contemplate
there would be no desired future if one were not to take action
is human the type of creature, whose desires is strong enough to navigate his life to his own will?
.....or is it just another delusion of human beings
......
haha it is kind of relief after i trot down these nonsense lines lol
what a useful de-stressing tool blogging is!
i still have not seen any solution to this mid-life crisis though T-T
