love in 2019

It's been ages since I last wrote something here
On the way to close 2019, thought i might as well put down some note
...
so i think I'm reaching what I've been labeling "adulthood" here, finally?
2019 has been a relaxing yet agitating and challenging year as ever for me
though I'm much aware and appreciate of the love and blessings indulged on me.

the challenges are common... how to cope with life in kindness, heal the psychological wound inflicted upon a farewell to a bond that has not even been formed, build future and a variety of unnamed worries and wondering ...

love, family, and farewell has frequented my mind so often lately
that may be due to the effect of living abroad alone and watching many mellow dramas of family topic

when i was much younger, the portrait of romantic love from the media and my naive heart believes love is something comes very natural and not affected by any external attempt.. yes we were so foolishly spoiled by the so-called notion of "fate" and " the other half" that we were blind love actually needs more appreciation and effort to build, nurture and last
then, we were too young we probably only loved the idea of being in love without actually understanding it at all...

Loving someone is not just the feeling of wanting to give them things. It’s the desperate desire to give them things. To love someone does not only mean that you love to feel them near you, but it means that you love to acclimate yourself to them. And also, to love someone means that no matter how much pain, or grief that person causes you, you find yourself wanting to hate them so much, yet… you can never bring yourself to hate them. To love someone doesn’t mean you don’t hate them, it means that you can’t hate them.

Time flows and leaves behind parting and regret. If you love someone, you need to say it now. You have to say it before the time spent breathlessly living turns into regret. Perhaps the biggest gift left by time is the memory of having loved. So before it’s too late, overcome your embarrassment and confess: ‘To you, the one I love. I love you” – Reply 1988

Above is an excerpt from the ending of one episode in a mellow Korean drama depicting the nostalgic time when we share more with our neighbor community and the family bond, friendship, and love when growing up
 Love is not all about being together and forcing your thoughts on your loved ones. It is about coming to term and accept the difference marking who they are, yet still willingly love and treasure them dearly
If only someone could taught us more about love earlier... or maybe only now at this age with this maturity that I can vaguely understand and touched by the lines above. Love and commitment to the loved ones for a lifetime is something easier thought than done, especially when living in itself alone is never an easy task
To love and live kindly in this mad world, much contemplation, skills and reflection is needed... 



https://www.brainpickings.org/2019/11/25/the-school-of-life-book/?fbclid=IwAR3TPCi0YQg7R6EubDRBwhORehw2enbImPqz3yPnN-tPhvf_ayhaunrey-Q

if you have time check out the journal with interesting read on love, emotional intelligence and the need for its education in contemporary world

I would like to write much more but let end it here first
My choice of words ran out after such a long halt in writing

Let me end with this song
its lyrics somehow always touches me very deep

That you're always by my side,
I wonder if its good that you're here?
If the world is full of sadness tomorrow,
I can survive cause you're here

Your small hands clutch onto me with
big love, I was move by it

I didn't know about "love"
just like those times, but
if my heart trembled, full of tears and my chest is in pain,
I can move on today, tomorrow cause you're there
Let's just sing this song so we wont lose sight of important things

we have

I was able to laugh through trivial times
When I saw your tears, my heart ache
If we continue on to spend each other, our days would grow
Just like my feelings I have for you

My love begins to moved when I feel
your voice, tears & smile

I don't know what love is at that time but
I'm infatuated and keep staring to you
I keep on looking for words that I wanted to tell
even it's limited, I'll give more love to you
Always and more will be given, cause love is so important

Definitely,
in front of you, there will be challenges to face
in that case, it's all worth fighting for just for you

There's always a place where ups and downs are repeated all the way,
but I wonder if you think that it will be nice if I'm with you

If I close my eyes, one thing that comes to my mind
are the mose important persons I hace
Surely I'll continue to believe more

Ah
From now on, our melody will keep on going into our lives
Let's draw our "memories" & "tomorrow" will spend more of this

moment!
Thank You
No matter how painful it is, its fun to think of you
Until you die, just sing with vestiges of thanksgiving love

I hope that we wont change our destination,the coming years and

decades
When we become adult, there'll be more tears so lets keep holding

hands and snuggles each other
Thank you
I was hanging out in time with same smile same tears
"Because you are here"
"Because there is you now"
To the one I love

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