for motherhood, and for love like the galaxy

here I am trying to write after abandoning my blog for almost 4years lol

read somewhere that writing is actually a type of meditation and a wonderful tool to clear your thoughts and understand who you are

cant agree more

writing does help me through my darkest moments and my tough time, calming me emotionally and putting me back into perspectives and logical reasonings; at the same time getting back my humor and practicing writing English. it feels like confiding to your friend and your emotional load is lifted after typing them down and trying to make the writing coherent. it really does wonder beyond my expectation.

Okay there are many many more benefits from writing I couldnt have been mentioning enough of. Just give it a try if you have any doubts. Plus it is fun to read your past entries, remembering the person you were once and the thoughts ocuppying you once.

What I want to write about in this blog is the above Chinese drama called `Love like the galaxy` that I watched in the last days of 2023

First I have to say after 10years plus of forgetting about Chinese historical drama, this drama has really taken me aback of how these historical time dramas have evolved and is way better than my past prejudice. 

I mean the setting is historical (which is always a strong point of Chinese drama) but the content is easily related to in modern society, added together with a well-thought plot, many witty dialogues, surprisingly beautiful cinematography, arousing and sophisticated soundtrack from Oriental traditional instruments, and of course the wonderful casts make it a totally tasteful treat, not any inferior in quality compared to mainstream popular Kdrama or Jdrama.

Apart from the aesthetically pleasing aspects, the drama tells brilliant tales of family bonds, of the ever-challenging relations of parents and child, ideals of loyalty in ancient time; and an intense and heart-throbbing love story of the main leads. 

I was imagining me in my twenties watching this show. I would probably woo over the tsundere appealing ML and get too emotional over the turbulent and eventful love story of the leads, without remembering to appreciate the side stories revolving around the supporting characters. 

Now in the beginning of motherhood, I cant help relating to the stories revolving the family bonds, put myself in the perspectives and agonize over the parents' heart. For us who gets no education on how to become mother, it is just as difficult to navigate life as our child who just begins to step out and navigate their life. For parents, to strike the balance between your endless affection and your stubbornness, to harden your hearts when disciplining your child is tough and excruciating. 

Having been through puberty ourselves, we surely more or less know why the difficult child might behave in way that angers us; yet we cant bring ourselves to make peace or give in just because we thought that it is not right, it is not what society expects, it is not how a girl/boy is supposed to behave... only to regret afterwards if we did it right, if we were too harsh, if our child was hurt, if only we could be less proud to admit our faults, if only we could control our emotions better... so and so was I pondering when taking my baby out for a walk

(well my child is nowhere near puberty but education a child at any age, any stage is a really demanding and tough job)

While in my twenties, i spent much time pondering and figuring out the person I am and the road to walk on ahead; in my thirties, with much less time for myself, and for thinking at all, my brains would circle around motherhood, family bond and human relation we have with people around us.

I read in a magazine featuring thoughts on Kenzaburo Oe's novels and ideas; in which states that human is better off living in groups, that the bond and closeness heals us, that human nature is not to be left alone... well something along the lines.

So be it, relationships is never easy and always demanding; yet i believe it is better for us to be able to bond with other human beings, to be able to trust and take responsibility in our relationship; for human take joy in helping others (much more than one could have expected); though it is definitely a continuous challenge we face through our life time. 

Back to the drama i was trying to promote (lol), another selling point is the lead actor and actress haha. I guess dramas can never do without the aesthetical pleasing points

I hope i can find the inspiration to write more this year...